the end of one, the new beginning of another..

i don't usually recall back what has happened in a year as i always believe no point staying in the past....but i soon to realise that i had been living for 22 years without knowing what have i done all these years....so, perhaps this year i should start recalling what has happened to me in 2005 to appreciate the goods and to learn from the bads...

my very first(s)

*had my first and only industrial training at d beginning of the year, it sucks like hell n yes, it is the most terrible time in the whole year. it is also in this period of time, my patient is being put on test..despite how bad it is, it has helped me a lot in self-growth...better temper at least..and it is also during this time, i learned that's a lot of ppl who care, family, bf and frens..thank u for enduring my temper and for listening ears..
*lost one of my dearest family member- my grandma on 7/6/05..i do miss her..
*had my first arguement with my uni mates after 3 years being classmates..but thank God we grow to understand each other better after that..but it sure is a 'heat' one..
*first n mayb the last class trip wit uni mates to genting..
*first time to casino in genting..yes, dun laugh ;p
*first time sing in public to get michael wong's signatured cd..n mega supports from dear uni mates~tis is also d first timeping volunteer to sing in public on behalf of me ;)
*first time being nominated on my article about my bro..thank u, jason...glad u like it :)
*had my first calvin and hobbes from ping dearest and second book from elder bro~
*first proper lantern festival celebration in kl with proper party n mooncakes~thank kew sa!
*bought my first web cam
*bought my first mp3 player hehehe
*first time wearing contact lenses
*had my first personal bible~thank u miko~
*first time learning n mastering photoshop, yes yes yes!!! it is so fun~
*attended first wedding dinner from my own secondary sch group of frens-limei dearest
*first trip to pulau ketam...
*first time to 8TV
*first time to church since secondary sch
*first christmas tree hehehehe
*this is not first but yes, i am really thankful for being able to meet up in so many many gatherings..the most i think after secondary sch years with old frens..had lots of funs and laughters..it sure reminds me of what a wonderful friendship means.. :)

i hope i din miss out any important 'first' time of mine..though there is nthg grand for the year..but am very thankful for all the 'first' time experience and yes, sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit kakakak..not that bad to experience small small miracles from time to time... :)

next year resolution? i prefer next year wish list..
*first of all, hope for mum to recover soon...
*hope for the greatest happiness, good health, good wealth and success for dearest family, bf and frens
*hope to be able to grad 'safely' hehehe..
*hope to land on a dream job..hope badly *cross finger n praying hard*kakakaka...
*hope to be able to start off my own saving...
*to be able to travel more..perhaps pulau redang, spore,bangkok or hatyai..anyone?
*hope to strike a lucky draw~free trip to JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha...
*hope to slim down but yes, i know very susah.. ;p
*hope for more miracles to come..hehehehe
*an also..stop falling asleep half way praying kakakakaka



WELCOME 2006.....HAPPY NEW YEAR

Flamingo International College..

was checking my mail after leaving it for so long during the semester break, i came across a reply from Flamingo International College.

remembering how many mails i've sent out on behalf of my younger bro last 2 weeks to search for course information..yes, only one college replied.Not only do they answer my questions, yes they too had kindly attached the course's fees, course duration, course structure, additional information like Uniform (Front Office & Chef), Knives Set, Boots / Safety Shoes, Meal Voucher and etc etc along. now that's what i call good customer service..

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Dear Tasha,

Greetings from Flamingo International College!!! The entry requirement for our Diploma in Hotel and Catering Management is 3Bs in UEC or 3 credits in SPM. Our next intake is on the 9th January 2006. Attached herewith is our course fees structure for your perusal.Should you require further clarification, please contact us.Thank you

Best Regards,Nicole Lee #

what happen to the rest of the colleges? don't they have the admin ppl to handle such enquires..duh...talk about better customer service..u know it's not easy for ppl who stay far away from those colleges to come right to the front door to ask for information k. Internet is suppose to 'connect' d world..

so thumb up for Flamingo International College and yes tis post is specially for them cox the rest of the ppl refuse to REPLY! ;p

angels..

i went to d campus today to search some reference books n information for my thesis...jus when i begin to pack my stuff home suddenly d rain started pouring heavily outside..i think yes, mayb d sky is crying for me since i'm alone n hungry at tat time...hehehehe

then yuki, a crazy fren at uni who was with me offer to drive me home!!!hehehe her bf happens to come to uni to fetch her..so yes, i tertumpang luck hehehe feel so blessed..u know when one is alone, it feels so good to hav ppl care cox u dun feel tat lonely anymore..imagine if i hav to walk in d heavy rain for bout 10 mins b4 i can reach d bus stop..by d time i'm home,yes it's about time to go to d clinic too..

i feel so blessed to hav yuki n her bf, han chiang to send me home..THANK KEW !!!!!










i've got so many journals, n lit review to read through...Gambadeh!!!!!!!! hopefully i can finish i soon cox yes, i wan to go home to tpg despite jus came bk last nite :)

i miss home n yes, i miss my parents..nononono not my younger bro, he drives me nuts.. ;p
i wonder if mum's getting better..

how to..

how to know when your younger brother has finally grown up?

• when he's "yelling" instead of "talking" to u
  
• when he comes home at 2am while u'r ade in d mid of yr dream
• when he no longer ask for favor, he "command" for favor
• when he no longer call u "姐(sis)" when he calls u for yr phone
• when he no longer listen to u but only d elder bro cox they r both MAN not boy anymore

shit!kedudukan tergugat...

p/s: btw, our first xmas tree from spore aunt...merry belated xmas ya~ MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL....

last one to know..

so many things has happened in my family recently so much so n yet i'm d last one to know...

last week mum broke her knee bone (is tat wat they call?) when she accidentally slipped n fell.. she injured her knee n her bone cracked resulting mum to undergo an operation..it was after a week then only i knew it when cousin mei told me over d phone..imagine d whole world including big bro n cousin sis, ching, in taiwan too knew about it n i'm d only one who's still bz thinking about nthg but my own probs, xmas n stuff...i feel so guilty now.. :(

mum n dad even send out warnings to everyone, including distance cousin whom i rarely keep in touch wit to keep d news secret away from me because i'm having my final examination at that moment..imagine how shocked i was when i knew about it..

next, little's bro's results is out n yes, i only knew it on d same day too, make it at nite....he didn't score well i think..not so sure how bad it is because but i believe it is time for a little sis-to-bro talk when i get bk n c wat's wrong......

anyway, according to my cousin sis ching in taiwan, everyone is keeping d news from me because they r afraid that i might get panic n rush home when i know about mum's incident..they believe that i'l b so blur n lost that i'l get into d wrong bus while crying to myself all d way till i reach taiping..
i do admit d last part on crying but man only today i knew everyone in my family thinks i'm a 'panic-rush-blind-chicken'...

it doesn't matter as long as everyone is safe, healthy n happy...God bless everyone who has been so kind in taking care of my mum(espeically 3yee n4yee, for cooking n doing house chores for us),family n also frens who send their regards n wishes..thank you..God bless..

p/s: do keep my mum in yr prayers can? thank you..may she get well soon..thank you...

**latest update: mum's getting better but she still need to rest ehr leg for another 6 weeks, before she's allow to touch d floor..i mean her leg...in d mean time, i'l b d part time maid along wit my dad n little bro hehe..oh yea also, today is officially d day of pingmi's akad nikah, congratulation girl!!!!!!!!!may love surround u always n happy "bernikah" ya!!

my crush...

i was serching through d internet for some college information for little bro when i realise yes i must search also d date of BRIAN LITRELL's solo album release date when i found out some sad news..
brian's solo album "in christ alone" which was originally scheduled to release this month has been delayed till next year.. :(

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u know sometimes when ppl asked me who's my idol..seriously i'l always say.."yes, i like daniel wu , takeshi kenoshiro, tony leung, edison chen...etc etc.." which r mainly my hubbies sekalian..kekekeke but if i am really to give an answer i guess so far in my list :BRIAN LITRELL is one of d very few..

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yes, as old as i am now..i admit i am still pretty much of a fan of BACKSTREET BOYS especially BRIAN..yes i hav crush on him since i was in f2 until now.. :) i have few giant posters of him n backstreet boys back in my secondary schooling years..u know those giant poster that u get from "smash hits" which cost about rm8-rm12 a magazine (one poster mag even cost me a bloody rm19, jus for a piece of brian's double page poster)..then i have their original casettes till cds *ahem-say a little prayer*

it is his voice that first caught my attention..followed by his talent, his caring personality- he has founded a charity specially for children-Healthy Heart Club For Kids- n also he did countless of charities..

i've always feel enchanted by his voice as though i was casted under his spell..u can really feel his singing....it is so emotionally filled.. Of cox, i like his witty n charming personality too..i especially love d way he smile..it melts (my heart) ... :)

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remembering d time when i heard about his news that he has to go through a heart operation..yes, i did said a prayer..then knowing he's getting marry..yes, can't help feeling how lucky d girl can b...n when i learned that he was blessed by a baby boy(Baylee Littrell), i know he'l b a great father...as though i am his wife kakakakakaka

anyway, d bottom line is he touches my heart through his songs n voice..yes he did... :)

p/s: hehehe i did sign up at one of his fans website to get regular update on him n bsb hehehe *paiseh paiseh*

dear kaisim..dear tash...

dear kaisim,

hey there, how r u doing recently?it's been long ever since i saw you..d last time i saw you would most probably when u r out wit wendy n sa, aha receiving gifts from miko n santa, studying wit a group of frens n etc etc....glad to c that u enjoyed yrself very much..i can see that you hav no problems bothering u, how lucky..it's nice to c u smiling and fooling all d time.. :)

fren........ hav u ever wish u can b a piece of white paper? where u learn to colour yr life once again?pink for love, yellow for sunshine, green for refreshing breeze, purple for sentimental touch and bright orange for happiness..there's too much blue, black,gray recently..so much to think about, or mayb it's bcox i'm in d mid of growing up?music has become my closest company recently..i love listening to them singing words n feelings deep down in me...yes, i wish to cry...

fren, i've been a really bad gf, daughter n fren recently...i lost temper at ping, i din manage to go home for more than 1 month n today i lost my temper at Chris, my fren..i hav no idea y..i jus wish to b alone..

better don't bother u so much since u r having yr exam at d moment..gambadeh k! good luck 4 yr next paper since today is not exactly yr day..take care..

luv,
tash

dear tash,

hi girl....hate to see u like that...guess perhaps u've been keeping to yrself..it seems like deep down u r not feeling happy though yes, u enjoyed yr frens company very well, receiving wishes from frens all over d place for yr exam....yr laughter, jokes, caring words r all sincere..what's wrong girl?..u should b happy...

u must hav felt very bad for unable to control d bad temper of yrs i know...there's nthg i can say about controlling..perhaps letting it go will make u feel better..look at things wit an open heart n mind then u'l feel much much better..trust me..dun b too stubborn..pray to God n ask for guidance, strenght n courage...

u r going to genting soon after exam..perhaps it is a good time for u to let yrself go n enjoy yrself to d fullest..afterall, there's a lot of things that u cannot control..b content n worry less perhaps are d right answers that u r looking for..

take care my fren..remember..everything wil b fine...don't worry...perhaps it's Aunty Menstrual that's playing jokes on u..cool down..everything wil b fine..n also girl, pls say sorry to Ping n Chris will u...

luv,
kaisim

i am a good girl k!

saw tis quiz n i found it cute n interesting at d same time, so was thinking y not, let's give it a try afterall i am really not wat ppl think i am.... ;p

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You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself You're the perfect blend of independent and caring You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Are You a Good Girlfriend?

hahahaha c i am a great girlfriend!!!hahahahah must really tell ping so that he knows i am good kakaka so ppl out there dun say i always bully my bf k..i'm a great gf.. :)

p/s: tml is d first day for my final examination..wish me luck!!!! back to my studies.. :)

dear mysterious sweet santa..

dear mysterious santa....


thank you thank you very very much..
i really like d suprise that u've planned..
i love it... :)
it is d loveliest flower i've ever seen..
the sweetest chocolates i've yet to taste..(it looked so yummy yet u ask me to wait til xmas ;p)

it is very beautiful..very sweet of u....
am very touched n suprised...

thank you for being so sweet n thoughtful..
u sure makes my xmas warmer n memorable... :)

God bless sweet santa like you ... :)
thank you..muacks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



p/s: may mysterious santa wil hav a lovely n unforgetable xmas this year... :)

jingle bell jingle bell....

what xmas means to you? xmas means yay yay yay to me!!!!! hehehehehe
not only it's a lovely season however it always manage to give me a very warm n nice feeling..i'm not sure how to describe d feeling but...

it feel so good to c xmas tree,
it feel so good to decorate a xmas tree,
it feel so good to hear ppl singing carols,
it feel so good to c places beautifully decorated,
it feel so good tat everyone is bz looking for presents,
it feel so good everyone is such in a partying mood hahahaha..
it sure makes me feel good... :)

every year i'l buy presents for my parents, elder bro n little bro,elder bro's gf (which tis year her present i had ade gotten last week hehe) bf, frens(some of us exchanged presents, i wish i can get 4 everyone tis year but ala poor students,must make good planning..i hope they dun mind getting cheapo presents hahahaha it's d heart that counts k ;p)...i wonder if little bro has a gf? hahahahaha

but am very bz wit final exam now n i hope that right after exam i'l b able to find some time to do some xmas shopping hehehehe can't wait... :)


hehehe my first xmas present of d year from miko, THANK KEW~~
it's a little cross that v can attach to our handphone :)
tak blh tahan d, cannot wait until xmas to open it la~hahahaha

p/s: if anyone planning to give me presents, i won't open til on xmas k.. (wendy sure say i beh hiao pai seh-muka tembok cox thinking sure got ppl buy me presents ahahahaha ala joking nia la!!!!! but if u insist to buy me then stil ok la~hahahahahahahahahaha)

study now..study now....

..when it hurts..

frankly speaking......
friendship has never been my strongest..
in friendship i cherish,
i treasure,
i appreciate,
n..
i fall,
i tumble,
i surrender...

i wish......
at least i know.....
i will feel better...

no more pain, no more tears...
simply tiredness that's been dragging...
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dear all my sis,buddies,pals, frens in general.....

i thank you for sharing such a sincere friendship..
in u gals/guys....i found d happiness once again ...
thank you...God bless...