am so glad..

hahaha let me share, let me share!!let me share my happiness with you!!kakakakaka

i jus got a call from a 5 star hotel INVITING me for an interview!! so happy!!!hahahaha

hehehe actually the story goes bk to where i went there once for an interview, thinking that they have vacancy for PR but it turned out that i had misunderstood about the title of the post. They are actually hiring front desk assistant. (to do the check in n check out work). But since i'm there so i thought mayb i should attend the interview also. As i had mentioned earlier in one of my posts, the interviewer was a very nice and pleasant guy. I explained to him that there's actually a misunderstanding as he was curious on how i would let go my degree to be a front desk assistant. But, he said that he will still keep my resume and if there's a vacancy for PR, he will let me know hehehe.

and he kept his promise!!! i got a call jus now and i feel so glad and happy..hehe i mean that means my resume and performance during that interview wasn't bad la~ kekeke

then the other day i got a call from a famous golf club in damansara asking me to go for an interview too..hehehe so my resume really not that bad la~ kakakaka

not sure why i would write such post but i guess i wanna share my thrill, happiness and thankful-ness here...afterall, here is where i speak and share my feelings :)

...

perhaps through this way it will be better for me to let go sooner..
really don't know what's in yr mind..

da vinci code.

finally, after been waiting so long, i had finally watched the da vinci code hehehe..am real excited when it first came out...before this i had read a few reviews and most of them that i read wasn't really positive..infact some of them said they talked too much , not much actions and not much of 'power'..

but after watching it last nite, i would say, it is pretty good.....if u had read the book already then u will realised that in the book that it talks a lot about christianity in the past...in the movie, they managed to bring the past before your eyes..it is jus not plainly explained by the actor but rather, the past are being acted out pretty amazingly....apart from that, all the actors were great especially Tom Hanks and Sir Ian Mckellen.The movie sure completed my imaginations from reading the book.

so many people has commented, blog-ed, forum-ed, disscussed on da vinci code since the launch of the book, so i ain't gonna debate about it again..some friends tell me i should not read the book if i am a true christian..no offend k but to me, personally i think if you have a strong faith you will not be easily moved by it~

i must admit, my faith wasn't so strong....when i read the book, i was kinda "har?? huh?? wah???my God...em hai ma??? hah??" it sort of given me all sort of imaginations, it makes me ponder and think a lot..it created doubts..but again, after some time, i realised that despite being a free-thinker cox our family though buddists, we do not worship any God, not to mention having an altar at home, nope.... but, i always pray to Jesus when i'm lost.

like wat i told chloe, one thing that holds me on is my prayer..God always answered my prayers.. serious~ therefore, i personally think the book has strengthen my faith instead..in fact, like what Tom Hanks said at the end of the movie " you choose to believe or not" (something like that)..then he gave an example on how God answered his prayer when he fell into the well...so it is pretty much on how you take the book and the movie..

but anyhow, my conclusion is that, i love the movie!!!

i need housemates...

anyone??

wil b in tpg..

dear fellow friends,

will be away for couple of days
dun worry, i'l b ok
jus dun miss me k~
take care..
muacks!

love, ks@tash

you tell the truth when u r drunk..

some people when they consumed a lot of alchohol drinks, they...

1. yell, scream
2. fight, kick
3. talk alot
4. total silent
5. pee in their pants
6. laugh
7. cry..
8. others..

for the first time ever i actually think i was a bit drunk, though i was able to think clearly, walked slowly and recalled back to what has happened but i was rather 'blur' then...it was really for the first time ever i felt the heat on my face, i dun usually go 'red-faced'...i had experienced it last nite...

only then, i realised that i laughed and smiled a lot when i'm at that 'blur-state'...but wat i don't know is the aftermath feeling.. is it really that after some alchohol, you will feel down or sad? or is it because the alchohol drinks has let the suppressed feelings inside to creep out...why am i feeling down now?

sa n wendy told me not to keep everything to myself but sometimes i too wish there's someone for me to lean on n cry my heart out..someone who will dig into my heart and free me from the weight that i am carrying inside..i can't seems to find a way to release myself..how i wish i will cry instead last night...

to my bunch of crazymates who be with me when i needed them..you know who you are..THANK YOU..i really appreciate for the listening ears, those consoling words,the outings, the shoulders to lean on, the warm hugs and so much more...

p/s: so much to think off recently...

disney desperate housewives..

got this from an email kakaka love it~

blessing in disguise..

dear father in heaven,

i've received your "gifts" since that day i said my prayers to You. They are lovely, Lord. i was kinda down before that but i know somehow You have something in store for me and true enough, the "gifts" that you send came and stay with me.

They disguised themselves very well yet they can't fool me hehehe. They disguised themselves as my family members, my friends, my special one, fren's of our family and even as strangers!!! hahahaha..That is so sweet of them. Like what i had said previously, they appeared along my way to attend interviews and it somehow managed to help me from feeling too bad. They give advices, supports, love, trust and most of all listening ears. Afterall, running about for interviews can be tiring both physically and emotionally.

It's not easy to be a job-hunter. The feeling of having to "WAIT" all the time is really torturing. The hours and attention given to every single call sometimes bring hopes, sometimes bring dissapointments. To those who are still waiting for their first call, it is killing. Therefore, i really hope it is not too much to ask my dear Lord, if You don't mind i would really like to share my presents with my fellows friends.

i hope the "gifts" will disguise themselves as family members, friends or even strangers just like how they had when they first approached me. Help my fellow friends who are looking for job, send rescues along the way, send signals, shower them with luck and bless them with the clarity of mind, the confident that they need. Help and bless them as how i am being blessed. i hope everything will be alright very very soon for each and everyone of us.

Thank You Lord, Thank You..

LOVE,
tasha ho kai sim


p/s: btw, did i mention about the "gifts" that was sent to me, came with the label "angels" ? I assumed that must be their brand, their name.

Fellows angels, Thank You. :)

now i know why i feel so un at ease.. i hope everything will be alright soon...pls....

don't worry, it's nothing but words from the heart..

i don't know why..am worry, nervous, lost at the same time...the chest feels tight and heavy...as though the heart has been tied tightly with chains of metal..maybe because of the fear of moving into another phase of life..

i have no doubt towards myself for i know i will always do my best..i have no fear mixing with people..i have the desire to learn and work step by step...yet, things doesn't seems right..perhaps, i'm afraid to let my family down..they pressured me NOT...I DID infact..I set a certain expectations towards myself, i shall make them proud...alright at least not to dissapoint them...my parents gave me everything...love, supports...everything..

elder bro called last night, am so glad to hear his voice...he shared some advices which i truly value. indeed bro, reality can be harsh and cruel too..sometimes i wonder how can you pull through everything especially when you are alone..who is there to share tips and guide you as how you guide me now? even with your help, i am still feeling lost and so on..

comparing myself to those who has no one to be there for them, those who has to work everything by themselves and those who carry every pieces of burden on their shoulders..i'm very lucky....

don't know why, i feet un at ease at this moment, i believe they feel even worst than i am....

frankly i'm not sure wat am i babbling about, i'm totally mixed up inside...i predict there shall be more posts as such within these few days..

p/s: i woke up early today despite the heavy rain outside..it was not because i had enough of sleep but it is because of the uneasy feeling inside that woke me up..this is no good..

...

i miss your laughters..
the sound that is so sincere and true to the heart..
i'm sorry..
for i took away the smiles and happiness..
replacing them with tears in the hearts
both in yours and mine...

i really miss your laughters..
laughters that sweeten, touched and melted my heart..

in memory

yesterday was exactly a year grandma has passed away..quite unbeliveable because it seems only yesterday...
kinda miss having her around,
kinda weird seeing the altar with her name stated on the glass frame...
i miss having her to touch my hands and talk to me..miss her laughters and miss her kisses..

do rest in peace grandma..missing you..

happy mother's day..

job hunting..

went out yesterday n today for interview...job status u asked? er...emmm..eii... haih...

most of them asked me to wait for second interview..some said that in second interview then only will they test me in terms of my writing n stuff..so at this moment, i guess the job status is critical..haih..

but guess God sure loves me enough to encourage me non -stop..thank God..

yesterday, i went to old town pj for an interview then went straight to Bukit Bintang for another one...for the first time i would say i actually met all nice taxi drivers..not only they do not charged extra but they give discount instead hehehe..there was even this bus uncle who kindly drop me to the nearest stop (not his stop either) to show me the way to the company that i wanna go..

when i finished my second interview (the interviewer was a very nice guy), it was raining heavily outside...HEAVILY...moreover, the wind was blowing and there was thunder too..but God answered my prayer when there was a sudden stop of wind blow n thunder so that i can run to a better shelter in front of the office..there, another taxi came to drop his customer...he wasn't going over to the monorial station but he agreed to drop me by then...and when i was in the taxi, he actually told me some jokes hahahahaha that sure cheers me up ..he didn't even charged me extra.. :)

as for today, i met a lovely and sweet girl..her name is Giovana..we sort of chatted a bit in the lift and my feet was in great pain because i have to walk about 15 mins to get to the building in taman maluri..moreover, yesterday i had walked all day long in heels..and u know how bad it can gets when it is wet..haih....anyway, back to Giovana, we had jus chatted for bout 3 mins, she offered to drive me to the Starlink station in her VIOS because she's going that way also...

i was totally TOUCHED!!!! i mean, that was so kind of her..i mean, my feet was hurting n it is so nice when people offer help when u needed one the most...hehe

i guess i am lucky to meet so many nice people along the way..at least it takes away some stress from "job-hunting" stage...i wish i am lucky in job hunting as well..sometimes i wonder if God has another job secured 4 me already hehehe

thank you to every helpful person along the way...Bless you..

p/s: i wish i can get a job soon...pray for me n everyone who's looking for job too ya!!thank you...

toking bout me?

"excuse me may i know where's d stationary department?"
"XXXXXXXXXX"
"oh i see..then it's ok.."
"XXXXXXXX"
"it's ok..nevermind, thank you *smile sweetly*"

i was looking for the stationary department at metrojaya, midvalley (d other day) and that was about d conversation i had at the information counter...
in fact, that guy was pretty helpful and pleasant but..
just as i turned to walk away i heard that guy (the information counter asistant) telling his friend****

so in order to make sure that was he talking about me? i try to recall if :

1. there's another lady nearby........nope
2. another guy perhaps.......nope
3. any tv or mtv broadcasting nearby........nope
4. talking to himself.........em hai kua...
5. other unknown reason........no idea...

anyway, the **** that the guy said was.........oh well...hehehehe "lawa" *BIG BIG BIG..MAKE IT HUGE GRIN*

kekekeke i don't care if that guy was really talking about me but i would like to believe that he was..... hehehehee u know sometimes a small little thing u do will make others happy?
i am muka tembok yea so shoot me if u want *spreading my arms wide* but that sure lifted my mood that evening!!!! hehehe

p/s: hey i am not that bad k!!!!!!!!!!!!! though not excellent/ to-die-for/nose-bleeding/etc etc kind la..so if ever u wanna shoot me.....make it gentle ya~ hehehe

a cartoon birthday for a cartoon brother..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO....may all your dreams comes true..stay healthy, happy, wealthy and charming.....i've send my favourite calvin and hobbes to celebrate your birthday hahahaha!!!!take care!!!

the heart will beat again..

the wind is blowing strong outside
alone in the room
cooling air sends a shiver
music is playing
singing to every shattered pieces in me...

remembering the night by the beach
the same wind that blow at the balcony
remembering the morning breeze
that clear the tears in the eyes
the sound of wave
that splashed away the pain
yet blazing sun shows
shadow that follows
warm sand with foot prints
a single pair that walks alone...

there shall be a heavy rain tonight
for there are no stars shining in the sky
rain shall wash away the pain
and the heart will then beat again...

0 + 興 ＋～ ＝ ?

0 + 興 + ～ ＝?

0 + 興 + ～ = turtle.

why??

look carefully

o興~

01-02-03-04-05-06

thestar has been highlighting about the once in a century 01-02-03-04-05-06 moment..should we consider ourselves lucky?

we live to witness
-the millenium
-this once- in 20-years-seen lunar moon, that only-seen-in-asia-for-the-first-time lunar moon
-the discovery of the tenth planet

"While not necessarily an American History event, the discovery of the tenth planet in our solar system was big news and was announced on July 29th 2005. The American astronomers proved the existence of the planet located further out than Pluto. It had been postulated for 75 years. It has yet to be named- about.com"

-the this and
-the that (can't really recall but i remember that was a lot of first time of that and that and that in these few years)
- and now the once in a century 01-02-03-04-05-06

pretty amazing in my opinion, i mean u dun get to encounter such events all the time..especially those 1000 years to be seen only once thingy or even this 01-02-03-04-05-06 once in a century special number..

i asked ping jus now what he plan to do during that dot of time..he says he'l most probably sleep through it..elly says she's gonna sleep through it also..cyen n myles wasn't aware of it kekeke

i'l most probably make a wish/prayer at that time......i'l ask for world peace, less polution, safe the polar bears , penguins n families from global warming and lastly may more countries will came forward to support the gay marriage...afterall, they love as much as we do too...

but again since i'm not in beauty pagent, i shall leave these wishes to fellow miss world sekalian..hehehe

as for my actual wishes..i shall make my most sincere and truthful i-min wishes exactly at 01-02-03-04-05-06 later on and 01-03-00-04-05-06 will then seal it safely for me.. too bad can't reveal it here, as the saying goes " wish will not come true if it is to tell it out loud" :)

"may all our dreams come true"

p/s: 01-02-03-04-05-06 and 01-03-00-04-05-06 sounds like a kind of virus/space alien/space agents/robots to me kekekeke

music heals your soul..

whenever i'm sad,
whenever i'm down,
i turn to music..
i listen to the songs,
i listen to the lyrics..

some of them makes me cry,
some of them gives me hopes...
some of them sing what is in my heart,
picturing what is in my mind,

some people think i'm sentimental
some people think i'm too emotional
i think i am simply romantic...

p/s:
now, i think i am just plainly too free hehe....
i'm job-hunting now so do pray for me to get myself pile with work soon..