i think i'm in love..

i had once fallen in love with someone else when i was dating my bf, ping. I know how wrong and unwise it was..it's a shame when u know how to advise and even scolded frens that are stepping into the wrong path but i guess it's true, no one can see themselves as clear as others do..i failed to see my own mistake and it failed to control the heart that leads me to him... i didn't make up any excuses or even blaming anyone for what i did, i had even told ping about him..

sometimes i wonder, will ping leave me one day eventually afterall, my heart doesn't seems to be with him all the time..

those butterflies and silly smiles..i found myself stupid at times when i realised i am actually smiling while walking back from lunch / going home..it is so embarrasing but i can't control myself.. i think i'm in love again with someone else..

The feeling was amazing..it kinda lifted up my day, brighten up my life and even sweeten every little things in my life..everything seems so beautiful..he truly capture my heart..entirely and deeply..as i was typing this, i have a sense of guilt as i mentioned to ping again..causing him another heart break..

But as i always said, if you realli love someone, you should say it out before it's too late..

i'm in love with him..

hahahahahahhahahahhahaha I AM SOOOOOOO MADLY IN LOVE WITH BI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, he was sooooo amazing!!! no doubt that his dancing moves are slightly alike with MJ's but he has his own charms and skills that truly deserved laud applauded. He's humble and he's cute, DEFFINATELY! His concert is the best that i've seen so far..from the stage, to the effects and his well choreographed dance moves, and his occasionally shy smiles.. man,he drives me nuts! realli he did.. he was awesome..he makes me smile silly -ly hehehe

i think i am in love~

this pic was taken from google..too bad he din unbutton his shirt in KL..how sad..

His concert was great and so were his songs..he called his fans 'his babies" kakaka though knowing this is only part of the gimmick but hey, i dun mind cox that will make me his baby too kakakakakakkakak u know whenever he starts dancing, i can't help but scream!!!!!!!! i screamed the whole nite neh..my god, he reali catch your breath away..oh dear ~ i think i'm in love~

tell u a secret kekeke, since the BSB's and Michael & Victor's posters on my wall back in my secondary years, I have already left those 'small girl' period long long long time ago.... now, i actually have his poster in my KL bedroom kakakakakakak

this is d poster i had in my room kekeke c those muscles..kekeke

i first notice about him in the drama fullhouse which i believe many has seen it..i used to think he's cute but i din't know i'l fall for him.. man, even when i'm typing this i feel like a kid..a silly one kakakakakka

i am sooooooooo happy muahahahah muahahahahahah MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i think i'm crazy in love with him..my bi.. "bi is rain in korean neh~"

can die man!

my concert tic hehe

rambling..

I am a pieces and I live in my own world. Rich with imagination, I can easily picture the invisible agendas happening even with my eyes wide open. At times, I am thankful that I have another world in my mind that I can let myself go and search for comfort that the real world doesn’t have.

Some might think I am being ignorant. Running away from the fact and the concealing the ugliness of world’s reality. But again, it could be a positive way of living where I am learning to see things more optimistically. As the saying goes, everything starts from a dream. I read from a book called something like the 9 essential elements in successful love and life. One element that I really like was with talent and desire, dreams will come true.

As we work, we might not realize what lies beneath us, as we tend to bury all our dreams under the piles of work and occupied with the business of life. Been toying with the idea to do something recently, something that might help me to realize my talent as well as fulfilling my desire. As I mentioned the phrase ‘to realize my talent’, I happen to realize another thing, I seems to know what my talent is or talents are but at the same time I wonder if I am talented at all? Is there anything I can do without much difficulty, or am I just merely doing things thinking that is my talent when in actual nothing perfects comes out of it. Or as the saying goes, talent needs brushing up. Am i brushing up it right? or do i have a talent to brush up?

Growing up is certainly not easy. Do you find yourself thinking who you are and what can you do about your life? Do you just live yourself as how it is or do you actually know what and how you want your life to be? Many times, obstacles and challenges come, leaving you fighting to struggle and to overcome it, either you parish, survived or even celebrate your victory with glory. Every of these time, you learn, you grow and you understand the way of life.
Life experiences they called it.

The richer your life experiences are, the richer your life would be.
The richer your life experiences are, the more cunning you’ll be?
The richer your life experiences are, the wiser you will be?
The richer your life experiences are, the lonelier you’ll be?

Anyone close to me will think that I tend to think too much, thinking the unnecessary. Thinking things like what I am writing here now, complicating myself, conflicting my own thoughts, principles and feelings. Yes, I can be very complicated. How bout you?

Do you know what I was imagining this morning as I walked into the lift? I was thinking what the heck was the lift stopping at 4th floor for so long ( I stayed at 3rd floor) when there’s no one in the lift when I stepped in.

Then immediately my brain tells me, the lift was opened for the invisible residents of the building and yes, I am in the same lift as they are.

Brilliant when you have a brain that functioned and imagined so fantastically.

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Come to think of it, everytime I need to blog, I found that I have the tendency to start off with “ It’s been long ever since I blogged”

Guess once you’ve left the blog for a certain period of time, you will no longer have ‘that much’ of things to ‘say’ again. Or mayb it is because, I have infact nothing much to say..afterall, life now is nothing but work work work n work.

With almost the whole day of your life are being spent in the office, what else do you get you c? Looking back at my previous post, I released that I used to have a fun life, my posts sounded happy and there’s a lot of daily-life photos taken. It truly reflects how I was at that moment. Even the kind of English that I used to write sounded better than what I am using rite now. The flair doesn’t seem to be there anymore. My posts even sounded ‘pointless’. But am not saying that my english and writing was that good in the past.

This is no good, since working, there seems to be less and less thankful and happy post. Guess, people tend to forget how to be grateful. Come to think of it, there are couple of personal things that I am grateful and thankful of. If you guys remember I once mentioned that my mum as diagnosed with Hepatitis C when I was in F6,that was about 5 years back. The good news is my mum is officially cleared from the virus after all the painful and heart-aching injections she took including those long-journey traveling from tpg to selayang hospital. Thank God, all these have finally come to an end.

Couldn’t be thankful enough, I really should go to church one Sunday as my prayers has always been answered. Hasn’t been a really good mutton though..soli soli I mean lamb, lamb of God hehehe.

Secondly, my ever mysterious and quiet bf finally has opened up himself and actually ‘talked’ to me…hehehe he never like to disclose wat was he thinking, how was he feeling and things like that. I know, it’s different for guys to talk and to express themselves, but hey do you really think we are the‘worms in your heart’? mai siao la! He doesn’t actually started talking like a chatter box but at least he share with me what he has been thinking. He actually has his own financial planning and it is good to hear that he actually did some research and keeping his ears an eyes open for opportunities. It might sounded silly, but to me, it gives me a sense of security as it will be meaningless to follow a guy who has no planning and thoughts for future. But this is just merely my own opinion.

There are some other kind of blessings that was showered upon me. Working life has been improving and * finger crossed* I hope this environment will continue to growth better and better. It is really a situation where “ it’s a blue sky after a rain”.. aiya in Chinese it’s called “yu guo tian qing” la..

Better go home now, I have a date with myself to go swimming hehehe.

Till then, hopefully I can update more frequently..

so far away.

Innocent days seems so far away..





Feel the heart..something not everyone know how to do..