pearls of *@%*

d water at my place (practically almost everypart in pj) smells of shit..eeiii..
all d water from d tap stinks n we r now having problem taking bath n most of all..we dun have clean water to drink... *exhausted*

according to our hostel management, they quoted that d water smells so bcox of d flood that has happened in Shah Alam..resulting d water to over-flow n some how contaminated our water here in pj..i wonder how true hmm...

anyway, u know when i take bath under d shower, i feels as though there r drops of "shit pearl" over my head!!!shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *vomitted* aiyer aiyer...hahahahahahaha

anyway, having difficulties at d moment trying to get use wit drinking less water, taking less bath....anyway, praying hard that d "shit moment" will b gone soon..til then, hope that i dun lemas under those shit!!

bday thanks..

another step
another path beyond
a mirror of reflection of the past
an image of a little girl
before the blow of candles

aroma of chocolate
fills wit a mixture of laughters
sweet and innocent
pure and true

the hearts that remembers
the gestures that enriched it
thoughtful presents
warm kisses
so beautifully it is...
it touches the heart
craved the smile...

strings of gratitude n thanks
prayers of happiness n blessing

for all d angels that makes it sweet...

fellow angels,

thank you for each n everyone who has made my birthday memorable..
very very very happy thank you for the presents, wishes and gatherings..
am very thankful n touched..God bless..

p/s: keep it up for next year ya! hehehe...joining chloe,chris,wenzi,pyee for steamboat next week hehehehe thanks girls!!!

thank you!!!!muacks muacks muacks

darling bought me to celebrate my bday yesterday (but my actualy bday is not today)...anyway, it was actually a second celebration cox previously we had went to genting highland for both valentine n bday hehehe...

had our lunch at kim gary....i looooooong for d cheese baked rice n finally i had it yesterday kekekekeke then we went to mph to browse through some books b4 we went for our movie of d day!!! i was os sosososososososososos lucky cox gsc r having extra screening on few oscar nominated movies from feb23-march8.....n YES I GET TO C MY FAVOURITE HARRY POTTER N D GOBLET OF FIRE!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahha i was so excited, even until now i am still excited!!!! i missed it d previous time bcox projects n thesis..i was so dissapointed back then but today nothing seems matter more kekeke i think i got so excited that i can feel my heart beats as it started!!!!it was brilliant kekekekeke i am so so so so so happy *big big grin* God loves me so much hehehehe thank you Lord!

then after that we went to jln jln b4 i spot a new baby hehehe u c recently my nokis 8250 has been hinting to quit its service..it has sent it's retirement signals by shutting off by itself, 'hang' when it feels bored (to get my on my nerves) , n other stunts whenever it feels like..i miss my nokia n i know it miss a nice-cute-sweet-caring-innocent-loving-responsible-master like me too..but too bad it's too old to serve at its best..so, i shall then let it go n may it rest in peace in my closet.... *sob*

from d moment i saw my new babe..i knew it..it wanted a master like me to rescue it from that glass cabinet..so, after discussing wit darling ping..we decided to adopt it... :) u know la, we r kind hearted-sweet-generous-warm-loving-caring pair of couple ma kekekeekke

dad n mum decided as grandparents to my new babe, they had voluntary sponsored a lump sum of d payment to support us..while d remaining, darling ping says he'l b responsible for it *wider wider wider grin*


n so i bought home my new babe , had a wonderful lunch plus harry potter suprise for d day...thank you dad,mum, darling ping especially for making d-day special... MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my new babe hehehehe

crazy week... *updated!!*

buddies..

d boys..

d girls..

these few days had been crazy...

went out with sa n wendy on monday...we went for heagen daz hehehehe finally after d one n only time i had it since f2...man, it was soooooooo good heheheh i had chocolate chips, sa had vanila strawberry i think then wendy had this green tea ice-cream that looked like a cup of wasabi..v met at 1.30pm at sunway pyramid then we walked around d shopping mall b4 meeting up wit sa's bf,kean aik, n off we went for dinner at (dun ask me where?!) hehehe anyway after that, we hang out at wendy's house till about 1am..by d time i reached home..it was about 1.30am i think...sa n wendy bought me a special suprise hehehehe

then met up with limei, sa n kean aik, von n dylon, soo ean at 1u for dinner on wednesday..limei bought me another suprise too hehehehe then v had dinner at tenpayaki..v moved to coffee bean later on n v chatted till almost 1am that nite too..am very thankful to have a bunch of caring frens who helped us to locate ean's car in 1u..damn 1u i hated their car park..it is so big n usually after 12am they'l start closing down most of d exits n entrances...we had a hard time trying to get bk to where ean parked her myvi..luckily we have kena aik n dylon helping us out..if not i dun think we'l b able to find d car..man u gals n guys R THE BEST!!!! thank God..if not, me n soo ean wil b stucked at 1u's carpark for d rest of d nite..reached home about 1.30 or 2am..

then met up with neet n nicole (lan eng)on thursday nite for yam char near my place...i think we hang out till about 1am as well that nite..d 3 of us n a special guest (neet's bf, mark)...hehe we r d first one to meet his bf heheehe

friday nite..that's last nite..i went out with a BUNCH..yes a BUNCH OF PPL for dinner...we have limei n her hubby andy, sa n kean aik,wendy, canmy, von n dylon, wei wan, neeta, angel n chee chun, phing yin, me n darling ping...15 of us having d noisest n craziest dinner at chopsticks noodle house at midvalley(for better description on d dinner..refer to von's post k..me lazy wanna describe..in fact, she wrote it very well hehehe)....later on we went to Carlos at KL to meet up with wei leng, sooean n her bf wilson....Luckily there were pool n snooker for d guys to enjoy themselves while us girls were busying toking n laughing out loud..damn, v can b very sia sui especially whe there r a bunch of us....no wonder we always worry if our frens will scared our boyfriends away..heheh anyway..had a great time last nite..was really fun n i think i reached home around 4.30 am..hehehe special thanks to sa n kean aik, n si kee for driving us...thank u!!!!! then last but not least AM VERY VERY VERY VERY HAPPY to have darling ping to join my frens last nite..thank u dear...

had a wonderful n enjoyable week with a bunch of grazy ppl called FRIENDS... :) i hope wendy feels much better being with us..

p/s: i heard that tonite they have plans too..shit...how bout my thesis???
tried to post pics but guess my server is tooooooooooooooooooooooo slow that i can't even post a pic..@#%* so, guess i'l post it some other time..

my dear fellow sisters...

pic is from wendy's page..

v met as strangers
bond as friends
it is destined out of billions that v met.

v share so much of fun n laughters
tears and dissapointments
letters and little notes scribbled with secrets
in exchange of words fills with comforts
in you my friend,
i see miracles,
i see no obstacles
for you always remind me
that everything will be fine..

and in return when at times u r lost
not knowing who u can count on
n tears keeps rolling down
my sis, u know i'l b there to share your sadness
as you had when i was defeated.

our friendship is a gift from God
there shall be no battles that can't b won
u shall never b alone
for there are us who will always be there
with supports as armours
and love as swords..

by, tash ho kai sim

mahjong tai hap!!

was chatting with sheena today and she was asking do i know how to play mahjong...
hahahaha me wor...HO KAI SIM wor..of cox!!!!it is part of social skills k.....hahahahaha
nola i had jus learned actually hehehe ;p

images from gettyimages

despite d fact that i dun read chinese but hey i still know how to "pong", "kang","chi ","hu" then all those" cheng yat shek", "tin wu", "liku liku" n those " feng 风" k kakakakakakakaka but seriously.. for me d ultimate satisfaction is to be able to count d "fan" cox not many young ppl like us know, dun mention those 'experts' and ah pek, ah em at kopi shop la....

to be able to count d "fan" makes d game much more interesting cox u just can't "hu/game" d round as u like..u hav to wait till u have enough "fan"..now that's d trick and challenge hehehe how to get d "fan"? well, first u hav to make sure that u have d rite num of "flower", u have those big cards like "中zhong","發 fa", "百扳bai pan" or even "人斗head/jokers" n etc etc.. a "pong" for any of those mentioned jus now will give you one "fan"... usually v have to collect at least 5 "fan" to game a round..

apart from that, u too can "pong" two sets of "man chi","sok chi" or "tong chi" to have one "fan". But of cox u can chose to have "ching yat sek" that means d same kind of pattern for each cards in d whole set of it n others...

anyway, there r a lot of other rules which i'm not really familiar with but so far, my skills are able to let me sit wit some frens to pretend as though i am damn good all my way through and to "show koli" as well hehehehehe -(show off la tu..kakakakaka)

some ppl say, if u dun bet with money, d game will b boring but for me..d ability to recognized those chinese characters and yelling "pong" n "hu" b4 others is exciting enough...man, when u yell "pong" that time, fuh!! ada air~~ hehehehe feels like so pro nia kakakaka n d sound of mahjong yes, very enchanting...mayb bcox i hav always fond of chinese culture therefore, it's nice to have 3-4 bananas sitting together n 'controlling' d mahjong kakakak so who said u can't play mahjong when u dunno chinese ;p

cny 2006..

happy valentine..

“Hey, I need yr help”
From that tone of voice I knew it. My elder bro needs me to get something for his gf who is here in KL.

So, off I go to Petaling street wit a mission impossible.
- First, get a bouquet of bloody expensive roses.
- Then bought a love shape box of forrero vocher chocolate.
- Pursue to next shop to get a nice paper bag (Thought of getting a basket to put d bear n chocolate but I think paper bag looked nicer still)
- Lastly bought a cute teddy bear with hands holding a love at d back (from Watson, damn cute!!)

So, many may think that my choice of gifts is so “normal” but hey, not my choice k..i’m jus d delivery girl hehehehe

But do u know above all actually cost tis much…

Flower - RM 85
Chocolate - RM 13.90
Paper bag - RM 2.50
Teddy bear - RM 19.90
TOTAL = RM 121.30

Plus bus fare for 2 (me n my bf) = RM 4
LRT to klcc = RM 3.20
LRT to university = RM 4.20
Bus fare home = RM 1.80
Dinner = RM 30.00
TOTAL = RM 43.20

Grand total for a valentine day for my future sis in law = RM 164.50 not including my phone calls charge as well as time n energy...hehehehe all expenses under big bro!!!kakakakakaka

I feel like an angel this year bcox it feels good to b able to send some happiness to my bro’s gf.. it’s nice to c my bro’s gf smiling and happy receiving d surprise…guess, at least she dun feel so alone.. :)

sheauhooi :)

but at d same time, do u know, it does not REALLY feels that good to hold a bouquet of flower n walk around d town...i feel so “fish” u know, so does my bf….his kind of fish is diff from mine…..his is “water fish –水鱼” mine is “好鱼” hahahahahaha ppl kept looking at u n u can imagine them laughing at “silly girl who wants expensive flower at valentine n stupid boy who spend so much for d soon-to-die flower” kakakakaka

I prefer if my bf to get my flower at lower prices on normal days as a surprise once a while :)
Anyway am very happy to b angel and to all lovers around d world..happy valentine…:)

情侣去死去死团..

isn't valentine suppose to be a season for lovers to show appreciation and love to each other? Is n't valentine suppose to be warm and sweet?
but for a group of young people in Taiwan, valentine is another kind of story...

"qing lv qu shi tuan" (情侣去死去死团) which directly transalate into english would be "lovers go to die group" was formed last year to go against all lovers in d world. Consisting of young people both male and female, they are mainly singles who had once been hurted, rejected or avoided badly by those that they went after.

d members-googleimages
The name of d group was originated from a japanese comic where in that comic that was a group named "ai qing qu si qu si tuan"(爱请去死去死团). It started off with a group of online gamers who posted various topic on love in a forum and then, the idea to build a group/club that go cursing at lovers was formed.


d chairman-googleimages
The members will usually gather during xmas, valentine's day as well as the chinese valentine's day. During this celebration, they will parade around in the busiest city with posters, banners, flyers and so on to show their demonstration against lovers. Then, they'l go around posting like ultraman with both hands crossed and "buzzzz" at lovers in hope to break them off.They too will take turns to shake hands with lovers and wishes them "'qing ren jie kuai le, zhu ni zao ri fen sou"(请人节快乐, 祝你早日分手) -Happy valentine and may you'l break off soon-

d ultraman hehehehe- googleimages
damn,they even have their own anthem, t-shirt, club id, tissues and so on. Their reasons to do so?

- to avoid youngsters that has hurted/rejected to do stupid stunts like commit suicide. The club will then be a place for them to share their sadness and dissapointment.
- to provide a place for the members to take "revenge".
- n etc etc etc..

man, this is so crazy..

jacinta..

Dear dairy, 07 February 2006

I had just come back from Jacinta’s funeral. It was a sad funeral and everyone was there except for her boyfriend Ryan. It is raining outside now as though the sky is crying for Jacinta. She was so young and beautiful. She was my best friend for 18 years and I can’t believe she had left me.

I can’t forgive myself. I should have refused to go with her to the clinic when she found out that she had pregnant with Ryan’s baby. I was shocked, disappointed and dumb-founded when she broke down crying to me last December. My sweet innocent friend, one that we joked who will die as a virgin telling me words that at that moment I truly don’t understand as if she’s speaking in an alien language. But I can’t let Jacinta faced the problem by herself when she needed me the most, dairy. I had made the biggest mistake in my life when I say yes to her.

It can no longer be delay and so we went to the clinic the very next day. The so-called clinic was nothing but a small room with dim light and rusty chair on the left side along with papers piling messily on table near the entrance. There was a bed in the middle of the room with curtains surrounding it. The smell of chloroform fills the air. Jacinta’s hand was cold and it was sweating against my hand. She held my hand so hard that it hurts. But still nothing beats the eerie and horrifying atmosphere in the room.

We had previously gone to a proper clinic down town where Jacinta had gone through an ultrasound scan. The doctor has conducted a finger prick test for the Rh factor and anemia (hematocrit below 30%), as well as measuring her blood pressure and pulse. Then she was later sent to take a simple pelvic exam before taking the mifepristone pill which helps to detach the pregnancy from the wall of the uterus. That was when Jacinta has officially begun her abortion process. The following two days she experienced light bleeding.

She did the abortion at Jacinta’s Aunt Rosie’s house since her aunt was away for a month holidays. Aunt Rosie is one of the closest aunt to Jacinta. We always played around in her little garden outside her semi-d house when we were younger. She was almost like our god-mother.

Jacinta cried that day when she needs to insert the misoprostol pills into her vagina. She cried because she can’t do it yet she can’t have the baby. It was impossible to have a child because it will bring disgrace to her family. Her parents will never forgive her after all she was their only child and their only hope. They will be so disappointed and the last thing she want to do. I was there, I gave her supports and I know she wants to abort the baby badly. The pill becomes absorbed by her body and it is possible for Jacinta to bleed too much or hemorrhage that will lead her to death. I need to be by her side.

Within the following 1 to 6 hours after she had inserted the misoprostol pills she begins to have strong cramps and heavy bleeding. She too experienced nausea, vomiting, and diarrhea, and a rise in temperature, she was really in pain. My heart goes out for her. I swear I’ll never go through what Jacinta was going through and I will not let her face it again. She held my hand and we were both crying so hard that my eyes hurt along with our aching hearts. The doctor said majority of women will have miscarried in 8 hours, but it may take, up to 12 hours or longer. We were both exhausted.

During the second scanning, we discovered that Jacinta was still pregnant. The medical abortion failed and she was recommended to go through a surgical abortion which is known as Vacuum Aspiration. The nightmare doesn’t ends here, Jacinta couldn’t bear to go through another ‘failure’. She has no confident in the clinic anymore. Moreover, she heard a friend saying there’s a traditional clinic down the road. That is where the “a small room with dim light” clinic Jacinta aborted her baby.

In the room, the fat lady placed a syringe, forceps, a scissors looking kind of instruments, few rolls of cotton wool, bottles of chloroform, needles and other ‘killing’ tools on the trolley. Jacinta was instructed to lie still on the bed and spread her leg wide. The fat lady then told us that she will use the scissors a-like tool to cut and slashed the fetus along with the use of forceps and so on before vacuuming the remaining of the fetus out. A bucket will be placed at the end of the bed. By the time the abortion is done, the fetus will only be in a pool of blood .Our heart dropped when we heard what she was going to do but we are too late to run away from the place.

The operation successfully ended after 2 hours. I took care of Jacinta the following days but she kept on bleeding heavily. The smell of blood alone is enough to kill. Four days later, Jacinta closed her eyes forever when I was downstairs preparing some porridge for her. She left without saying goodbye.

I blamed myself dairy, I should have stopped her and I should have told her parents. I should have not allowed her to go through the abortion especially the illegal ones. Now Jacinta is gone and my tears kept rolling and I feel so hopeless, I have fear dairy, I fear to make the same mistake as my beloved friend Jacinta had, I fear for those who need to go through abortion . I fear to witness any abortion anymore. It is too cruel.

Jacinta dear, I miss you and I’m sorry…

nee's pool birthday party

went for nee's bday last month at mount kiara (cuiqing's aunty's house actually)...v had lots of fun, laughter n finally, after so long, i get a chance to swim again!!!!!yay yay yay!!! it's been really long ever since i swim u know....I LOooooVE SWIMMING...i love d feeling when i'm in d water, it is d feeling to be able to clear my mind and to relax myself completely...N of cox being able to swim with a bunch of nutty frens adds on more to d fun.......Plus, i found a new love in domino pizza!!! hehehehe..never realised that they actually tasted not bad :)

wil blog on cny soon after i've done wit my projects n stuff so till then enjoy d pictures first ya~