speech...

was invited to give a speech to my juniors on my past industrial attachment experiences..
i was shaking like nuts and it was really embarassing..
the older i get, the more stage fright i have..remembering those days when i used to mc major events in sch or even during first and second year of my uni life..
but now i actually shaked and trembled my words through as though i'm going to run out of breath pretty at any time..
even now that i'm home safely, the speech is still running through my mind, double checking to see if i had left anything out in d speech or did i said something wrong...
gosh...pressure-nia~
gotta focus now in my studies and project bcox i'll be having mid term exam next week and 2 projects to b hand in next week too...

dream

dreamt about grandma last nite..
it is at a small housing area near a kindergarden..
i saw grandma..i was toking to her and she was looking at those children in the class...
then suddenly i remembered tat i myself hav a class to attend too...
i remember i was holding her hands and i kept telling her
"ah ma, you must take care...must take care a..."
she looked at me, smiling and i heard her saying "ah...ah.." while nodding her head like she always do whenever she agree with wat we said to her....
i keep on telling her til a car came and i was awake....
i miss my grandma...

i never know i will miss her this much...i miss her a lot...i wish i could cal her ah ma again...

sunday

it's sunday...n i thought it is saturday...
gosh....hav to attend class 6 days a week
wit piles of assignments n notes...
help~~

prob..

erm..we r currently doing a project for Media Planning n Creative Strategy..tada!! we r dOing on rice as our product...erm...a tough one actually bcox the target market is too wide n moreover we have this prob of ppl wil not care wat brand of rice they are taking, as long as it is delicious and affordable..
not much of brand loyalty here compared to other product like perhaps for sports shoes, we will most prob going for nike if we usually buy that brand.
besides, it is hard to emphasize the USP (unique selling point) of a brand bcox basically all d rice are d same nutrition wise or texture...they r all soft, tender n etc...
our lecturers actually worried that our group may not able to come up wit a plan n creativee advertisements...that sure to STRESS US UP..they dun think we can make it.....but erm..v on d other hand do hav d idea n planning..d only prob now is HOW TO EXECUTE d IDEA n HOW to ORGANIZED IT PERFECTLY so that they (lecturers n fellow coursemate) will b able to hav a clear idea during our presentation...We need to layout the whole idea PERFECTLY..WE HAVE TO MAKE THEM C, UNDERSTAND N AGREE...hmmmm..

let's just pray...
KAMBADEH!!V CAN DO IT!!!

if only

if only feelings can be describe...

there's so much in me that i found it hard to express using words...
there isn't any precise word to describe how i feel..

i miss my grandma..
i'm greatful to have a loving family n bf..(after so many things that has happened)
i'm stressed up with assignments..
i'm too reluctant to start studying, but i wish i could...
i am exhausted......

finally

after some thoughts, eventually i've decided to start it all over again...i once had a blog which i really liked and i too had put in alot of effort decorating it n wat not...
but bcox of fear...i ended it wit a simple click..
but there's so much in me recently that i wish to tell or rather typed it here..so i've decided to hav my once-upon-a-time dairy again...

p/s: grandma has passed away last tuesday...i miss her....