am stresseeeeeeed...r u?

no one wil believe if i actually tel them tat i had been loaded wit assignments since d beginning of d semester...there seems to b no end to it..walau..so i've decided to lepak online to see if there's anything else tat is more attractive than my assigments..(which r plenty hehehe) so was browsing through friendster, blogs, emails while chatting in msn....

saw many new pictures in friendster...jus to name a few..
jolene (weileng) an old fren of mine...wat can i say...she's gorgeous!!!!
von...can u pls tell me how u slimmed down so much?
elly..getting prettier n prettier...
chia...growing n glowing...she looks very much like a lady now...
greeny...as lovely as ever....getting sweeter in fact....and those cakes..wish i could eat without adding inches to my waist n tights...haih...
neets dear..forever pretty n getting more elegant now..
su ann...did u pakat wit von???
chui mei n poh eyan...revealing more of thier ever slim body...
i think i better stop here..the more i list down the more i wish to kill myself..not to mention those tat i saw lately...phaikyu, shirley, yan hui, li mei...okok enough is enough..

haih...so i moved to read all my frens blog...
weiwen's pic strucked me like thunder....i wan yr body....i wonder when can i get to wear bikini..perhaps tonite in my dreams hehe

msn...was chatting wit elly and some other frens..i heard so n so is buying a car, so n so buying an apartment, so n so is establishing company, so n so is .........
n i am still studying n spending.....ehm....should i b glad or wat?

after some supposed-to-b-a-tension-relieve-internet-browsing-session..in d end...i feel even worst...NOW I AM REALLY STRESSED!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA...wat's wrong wit me?....gila d..again..
ehm..wat to hav for dinner leh?...shouldn't i start dieting?? hehehe

the power of journalist..

been really bz these days not only with assignments n studies but also with burfdays...
we (bday girl-chris, wenzi n myself) went to sunway pyramid red box last monday to celebrate chris's bday.. usually v wil go there by pyee's car but bcox she had 2 meetings that day, so v decided to go shopping at sunway while v wait for pyee to join us later..
v then took a cab from ss17...again, this time v met another bloody taxi driver who doesn't know d way to sunway n yet pretended he knew it..instead of taking the federal highway, he took LDP..so fine...but idiot was he, he began to ask us for direction half way through d journey when he is supposed to know d way since he had taken it from d start!!

we were lost since we r not familiar wit d road itself...after some discussion and so on the taxi driver said :

t.d : Apa, u orang college student a?
we : ya... (not wanting to let him know which uni students v r, guess tis is a normal reaction rite)
t.d : u don't study road a? ( indicating that v do notknow d way..duh!! like chris says, of cox v dun study road..wat to study hahahaha)

we were so bengang tat v stop answering him..then he took a big round from subang jaya(imagine how much more v hav to pay...haih..)
then, idiot him, he switched off d air-cond #$%#
but fine, we jus keep on toking n hoping to arrive soon, afterall u do not know wat wil happen if he suddenly went gila and drive us to somewhere else..tiba-tiba..

t.d : u nak pergi college atau pyramid.
we : pyramid la!! (we said so d first moment we stepped into d taxi duh!)
t.d : u bukan budak college?
i : U (university la~)
wenzi :UM( at d same time)
t.d : o.. (sounds a bit suprised..guess he has been thinking tat v r sunway college students). UM?
we : yes! (sorry la, UM frens hahahaha)
t.d : what course
i : journalism-reporter
wenzi : we do reporting on what happen everyday
t.d : o..(he sounds more shocked at this moment..he actually toned down his voice and said that it's a good job..he then asked us do not simply report things..hahahahah)
i : we will report the truth and nothing but the truth (hhahaha a good chance to scare him d..)
wenzi : we r good at complaining.. (hahah nice one!)
t.d : yala, but must report properly..
i : depends on situations la..we will tell the truth (wit d i'm-refering-to-how-u-taxi-driver-treated-us today tone) then v continued wit our attack..
wenzi : kami miskin, budak sekolah
t.d : tapi pergi shopping (at pyramid)
i : we r going there for a project (hehehe, v r good at telling lies.. :P )
wenzi : if go shopping we won't bring so many bags with us..we r just students, poor students..

he then began to laugh a bit, tok nicely and try to be nice to us but too bad we were about to reach...he then says thank u and he even charged us cheaper than wat d meter stated..(how much cheaper??? 10 cent nia la) hahahahahahahaha but still, if not i believe he wil ask for more..

so i guess being a journalist afterall do have some power.. :)

served him rite, padan muka! :P

@#$%^~ excuse me..

after spending countless hours, minutes n seconds editing n worrying tat wat i've written might b offensive or defamatory but @#$% it jus went poooh! haih..wasting all my time nia..it has jus left me wit a sentence of...

"is there any expectation in love? or to be percise is the"

walau-eh.........

better go to sleep now...duh....

final 'expectation'

is there any expectation in love? or to be percise is the

expectation part 2

...so many things that has happened recently..so much so that guess my only pillar of supports lies in ping, family n my favourite song..'can't take tat away'...been trying to blog several times bcox there's so much to share but guess as time goes by, i'l somehow lose d desire to blog..

yeah bout d expectation..well let me jus summarize it in d simplest way..

i : dad, i've got smthg to discuss wit u all..
dad :dun tell me u wanna get married now..hahaha
i : no of cox! jus wanna tell u guys that i think i wanna b a tutor when i grad..mayb i'l work for a year or two bfore i start to tutor at college..i wan a simple life..i wish not to climb too high cox my piriority is to hav a family.. (sound very not ambitious.. :p)..i do not wish to force myself jus bcox my frens r all doing well in thier career n so on...i know my piriority n i wish not be one that ppl wish me to b..
dad : "looked puzzled and calm at d same time "..as long as u like wat u do...u know wat u want, it's fine for us..as long as u r happy...( very ideal answer hehehe but yes, that's wat my dad said n it has always been like that in d family...they wil let us do what they think it's d best for us, n v will b what v want to b..very democratic in a sense hahahah)
i : really?..won't u guys b dissapointed?( afterall, they had always thought i can b a news anchor n so on..i'm not that excellent to b one lol~)
dad : no worry, as long as u r happy.... :)

end of discussion?.....nope

dad : perhaps when after being a tutor u can be a lecturer in university... :)

ehm...d expectation is still there.....

same conversation goes when i wanted to b a nurse once upon a time...they thought i was going to marry a doctor hahahahahahah....very happy that they hav d confident n trust in me...well this expectation is not that great bcox they do not pressure me into it but still with those words like "perhaps u can b a lecturer" ringing in my ears...ehm....

i'l do my best i promise n we'll c wat i'll be then hehehehe..afterall i need to equip myself wit d neccessary qualifications n may there b a chance for me to shine... :)

p/s: i stil love d idea to hav a stable family :)

above conversation has been summarized..naggings(include comments, advices, ideas n suggestions) from mom n dad has been eliminated.

ya...expectation n thank q post-part 1 (friendship)

erm..been really bz these month..exam exam exam n assignments assignments assignments n presentation presentation presentation..i can hardly hav d time to update my blog though i hav tons to write..many things happend within this week too...i wonder where should i start..

yeah i was toking bout expectation in one of my previous post..

was rather stressed since last month....and it add on d stress when there r expectations...

from..friends...

friends always take me as a superwoman..one that can handle my probs by myself.....
am organized enough to settle my probs n others' prob too....
am able to composed myself in any situation tat i might faced...
able to always come up with ideas for party to assignments....
am reliable to present d best of out me.....
am expected to be happy, always laughing and basically a happy-go-lucky girl...

though it might help in building my self-confidence becox ppl hav d trust in me.....but there r times i too need someone to listen to me too..grandma passed away last month and suprisingly my UNI FRENS been sending regards like 'take care' and so on along the week of my absents and they have been really caring and concern of me though v hav only know each other for bout 2 years plus...very sensitive of them..

ELLY,YIN,SA,CLARE,VON,ADELINE in d STATES...thank u gals for d msgs through sms or msn...am really touched...many of my old frens din know about it, so i don't blame them...wonder will they msg if they know?.....hav frens who r close to me (in term of geographically) but they dun seemed to bother to drop by....perhaps they r afriad, shy, no knowing how to react when they c me...i dunno..but one thing for sure, in such situation anyone will need moral support..so am i..

AM VERY THANKFUL and TOUCHED to have CLARE CHAN LI MEI to actually listen to my problems and spend time to tok to me over the msn along my recovery( emotionally)......girl, wat else can i say..THANK YOU....she mentioned something that reminds me of what SA told me once before.. i can't tell u how glad nor can i find any word to describe but these r wat they said that really touched my heart..

SA :"....may u be showered with happiness and love alwis..just as much as u have given otherss.." . She mentioned this in friendster..

guess sometimes, u jus wish ppl will appreciate u..a simple thank u sometimes means a lot..

was loaded with assignments tis month n was very tired actually...but wenzi told me smthg today that makes me realised all those pressures and help that i've given to them worth in return..

WENZI : " will u get angry tat v will drag u too in terms of marks for group assignements bcox of our poor presentation..we (as in she and chris) r worried that u will get sad or angry.."

they sort of discussed this among themselves sometimes ago n i guess they sort off worried or feel guilty that they might caused me to have bad grades in assigments nad so on...I was glad when i heard what she said bcox at least they showed that they care for how i feel...

appreciation is enough....not favor in return is needed...it is jus tat simple...

TO EVERYONE WHO HAS HELPED, GUIDED, SHARED ADVICES OR THOUGHTS TO FEELINGS,STAND BY, SUPPORTED,LENDING A SHOULDER (or both) for me 2 cry on, LISTENING EARS, LOVING AND CARING FOR ME ALONG THE WAY n so on.....................THANK YOU....

i mean it from d bottom of my heart..

n no more futher expectation?..

.....i wish i too can have people to shower me wit tender love n care too...(apart from ever loving n supportive n D VVVVVIPs people in my life, a wonderful woman-mummy dearest, 4 most important men-dad, big bro, small bro n darling ping..they mean d whole world to me..)

to be continued....

my support....

They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

Chorus:
’cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they cant take that away from me
From me

They can do anything they want to you
Lf you let them in
But they won't ever win
If you cling to your pride
And just push them aside
See
I have learned there's an inner peace I own
Something in my soul
That they cannot possess
So I won't be afraid
And darkness will fade

’cause there's a light in me
That shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me

No
They can’t take this
Precious love
L'll always have inside me
Certainly the lord will guide me
Where I need to go

They can say anything they want to say
Try to break me down
But 1 won't face the ground
I will rise steadily
Sailing out of their reach

Oh lord
They do try hard to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to falter
In what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

'cause there's a light in me that shines brightly
They can try
But they can't take that away from me
From me


i always listen to tis rather old song whenever i feel discouraged.....Can't take that away by Mariah Carey...

jus not d day..

was suppose to post something bout 'expectation' but perhaps some other day....

gosh...today surely is not a day for us..we (chris, wenzi n yee) went out to celebrate wenzi's burfday.. but things doesn't seems to go our way

• we were at d bus stop waiting for metro bus when we saw a Putra bus coming in d opposite direction..at tis moment, a metro bus came as well..so after a quick discussion we plan to take d putra bus instead..afterall, it is cheaper n it leaves us nearer to our destination(sunway), therefore v can save some time n do some shopping..but guess wat, once v get to d opposite road, d putra bus broke down n wat v can only do was jus staring at d metro bus passed without us....
• then, v took a taxi...d taxi driver took a longer routine (tat's wat v think) therefore, v begin 2 ask him to change to d direction tat v want(asia jaya), afterall v know d federal highway better...then, he starts to challenge us n said things like " if u r not satisfied, u might get down in front"..v were shocked, but bcox v really dun like his attitude, v agreed to get down(v were at ss2 at tis moment)..that leaves us having no choice but to take another taxi..however, d next taxi driver take a wrong route which end up causing us to pay more than v r supposed to...
• @ sunway pyramid..finally..v r tired n hungry at d same time..so after having some 'popiah' then v begin our shopping spree..after looking into several shoe outlets..finally, i found my love..a very lovely pair white 'mary jones'..chris n wenzi found thiers too..but unfortunately, they dun have our size...haih...
• then after a lovely steamboat buffet, v planned to go One Utama to shop..on d way, we nearly met an accident, when i say nearly, it is very near indeed...v were so near tat all of us got shocked n i had accidentaly jerked my back wehn yee stepped hard on d brake..(i'm feeling better now though..) i was so afraid tat d guy in d car wil get down n scold or even beat us up cox it was a really close accident...he was shocked too i guess...then v realised v were @ d wrong track..
• after some window shopping @ 1U..(where v failed to buy anything bcox all d shops r closing) then v planned our next destination...'wow wow cafe' @kelana jaya..it was closed..then v head to d 'hai lor cafe' @ d Curve..d place was packed n worst, v were totally ignored by those SNOBBISH WAITRESS.... i jus hate it whenever ppl looked down on me..as though i can't effort to pay for my orders...v then decided 2 move to another cafe after being ignored 4 so many times..
• v went to damansara...there was a cafe named steam...d place was alrite...d singers was alrite too..in fact they r not bad compared to those tat i've listened to b4...the guy was actually very smart looking n handsome too..imagine a handsome guy planning guitar..he sings very well too...so does d girl...BUT d drinks there SUCKS!! i can't use any other word than SUCKS no matter how good thier service or singers r but thier drinks SUCKS!! it caused us RM 9.90 per glass of juice (not even fruit juice, jus normal drinks actually..) n it tasted like WATER..IT IS D WORST DRINK I 've EVER HAD N IT CERTAINLY DOESN'T WORTH D PRICE TAT I'M PAYING it for..IT DOESN'T WORTH AT ALL!!!!!! sorry but i dun think i wil visit tat place ever again...now i understand y d place r not crowded like others afterall today is a saturday nite..a single credit wil b thier service which was rather friendly..
  
• finaly v decided 2 head home...at 1.15 am, i reached my room..SAFELY...

this surely a bad hair, bad mood, bad luck, bad bad day...but luckily v did enjoyed each other's companion...

p/s: read from a fren's blog on how celebrities like lindsay lohan, mary kate olsen, paris hilton, n others r losing weight though they r already slim/thin/skinny enough n how some of her frens still dying to b thin though they have hour-glass figure as quoted in her blog..

i hav such frens as well..i'm not slim myself...in fact i'm plump i would say but i jus don't get it how they will starve themselves n even take laxative in order to b thinner...but guess wat really bothers me r those tat will keep on telling u that 'i'm poor, i'm not smart, i'm not as pretty as u '..u know, words that r refering n stepping down at themselves when u know she's not as bad as she will put herself as, words they used 2 fish for compliments perhaps...

most of d time v won't tell them 'yeah, u r ugly" therefore, v r left by no choice but by telling her " nola, u r pretty, smarts, good body figure n etc etc etc......" so tat they'll stop embarassing themselves..

it's not tat i dun like 2 give compliments..it jus tat i wil only compliments when i really meant it..not complimenting through force or simply jus to entertain a fren..afterall, that's not wat friendship is about rite? enlight me pls...

predicted..

jus like wat tat's been predicted...i think i'm gonna fail tis paper....
no pity for me i know...i won't pity myself either..hahahahahaha
gosh...d exam's sure is tiring not bcox i hav plenty to write but it's bcox i need to squeezzzzz my damn brain to come out with something...duh~

hahaha a fren of mine jus came out from the exam room..he's been yelling all those beautiful f words cursing d paper..MUAHAHAHAHA
better get myslef prepare to expect a damn result hohohoho

yeah come to think of it..i was suppose to post about 'expectation'...but too hungry at this moment..perhaps tonite then hehehe...

my prize..

i'm supposed to study for my 2pm e-comm exam today but hehehe i can't seems to resist posting something here...tried to post something last nite but somehow d comp went gila, nuts, mad, dong dong n lain lain yang segroup dengan-nia...so i didn't manage to do it till now hehehehe

jus let me start of wit pics of d prize hehehe

on top that's d prize i mentioned in my previous post..tat's him MICHAEL WONG....n there's his signature hehehe very nice rite!! hehehe

i placed d cd cover on my cabinet hehehe
this is how my cabinet looks like..let me intro ya..d pink colour bday card is from a very special buddy, sis of mine..a 16 years of friendship with shirley a.k.a. ah sa...wat else can i say girl...i love it very much, thank you n friends forever ya.... *hugS*

the tiny yet sweet, simple n jus-d-way-i-liked-it burfday card on the right hand side is from ping dear..thank you dear... oh ya..so does d piggy at d bottom..specially from dear also.. 10q *MUACKS*

at d right bottom..u can c a sort of dark colour script..it's actually a christmas present from a special uni-pal of mine blur blur phui yee...10Q ..c i hav it there but it's kinda low cox my magnet can't support it..it's too heavy n it kept sliding down..hahaha *HIGH 5!! piak!*

then there's magnets everywhere which i bought it from melaka, salvation, midvalley n one from dear as well (cox he lost his pool game to me muahahahaha)..

guess that's all for now..gtg study lol....but lazy la~~~

touched..

there's so many things tat has happened today..
feeling pretty excited n at d same time feeling stupid for wat i did about an hour ago..

a local radio station came to my uni to promote the up-coming chinese music awards event tat wil be held in bukit jalil..that wasn't wat that relly caught my attention..
the first thing tat really get me excited was d 'MICHAEL WONG'S' single cd with his signature on it..guess i'm not d only one who wants TAT prize hehehe...

so, wat they need us to do in order to get tat particular prize is to sing his current hits 'tong hua' (fairy tale)....IN FRONTOF EVRYONE...duh~

was i being jinx by my desire or i jus wanted the cd so badly..i actually raised up my hand (only to realise tat my heart is racing at 180km/hour) but i wanted d cd....or at elast a cd with his signature hehehe

so i went out wit a guy n 2 girls n hehehe with all d supports from my frens cheering like mad hahahaha (U GUYS R TERRIFIC!!!!! thank you very much!!!love ya!!!!) hehehe d prize is safely wit me now.. *grin*

BUT guess wat tat really touched my heart n d biggest prize of all is that, i found out that ping actually DID RAISED his hand too..i never thought he actually will raised his hand n plan to sing d song in front of d crowd so that he can win d cd for me...i mean, he's such a shy guy...he's deffinately not d type to sing or perform in front of so many ppl....i am really really touched...

without d cd i think i hav already won d BIGGEST n MOST WONDERFUL prize for the day...THANK YOU DEAR...THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH....i'm really touched.... :)

moral support..

my fren's dad passed away yesterday..i jus happens to know it..
i know how bad he feels afterall i've jus lost my grandma recently..
he must hav feel terrible bcox he's been oevrsea studying n he hasn't see his dad for bout a year...he must be really sad n shocked...gosh..

i still feel d pain whenever i think of my grandma..i can't imagine if my parents left me..
i can't n i dare not to imagine it at all..I DUN WAN to imagine AT ALL..

my deepest condolences to him n his family..
take care...

babbling....

jus finished my un-finished exam..
jus thought of coming in to babble something..
which i'm not sure what...
..................................................................................

so much to do for next week....

exams...

sociology presentation....

creative strategy presentation....

media planning design....

creative designs...

burfdays...

ANNIVERSARY...hehehe......

dry vineger..

love should b about trust,
love should be about respect,
love should be about confident,
love should be about generosity,
love should be about understanding,
love should be about freedom,
love should be about feeling comfortable...

it should be something that v should have in each other..

i'm glad i've learned.... :)

* no more unnecessary dry vineger for me hehe~

old drama

was absent from d last lect bcox of some terrible abdomen pain n i missed one hell of a drama which happens at uni...
well basically i read it from christina's blog n i really wonder what d heck were these ppl thinking??
check out her *6 days week* n you'l know d story..http://tshirtandshorts.blogspot.com/

i wonder who's prob is it..a third party?...an old lover who refused to let go?...or jus some stupid girl trying to double date two guys at d same time? haih....


love is a beautiful thing.....
y make it ugly?

go away

go away...

exam...
worries...
laziness....
the pain...
the stress...
assignments...
sleepless nite......
reluctant feeling tat should not be here.....