Dear Along..

Dear Along,

Sorry to hear about your baby..i just found out today from reading your blog as work has been keeping me very busy these few months..

But do know that God will have plans for you..

take care,
tash

not sure if i should leave this comment on your blog as I dun feel like bringing up this topic again but at d same time, jus feel like letting you know , i feel sorry for u too..take care

p/s: love your love on "The Meaning of Dania and Dina"..lovely names :)

MIA-why? (part 2)

continue...


this is a bigger picture of Harlem... I somehow like this picture..mayb because of the giant H that he is standing on top..guess that is realli wat a concert should actually b..


this is d coffee shop near our studio where the band and artistes rehearse. it is also the only place i can find to sit down for a cup of 'lai char' before waiting like an idiot for hours..u know, when ppl dun c you arund..ppl will think that you are lepak-ing n not doing your job..but no one will actually think that perhaps u have something on the other hand..

but i dun really like the food... nothing compares to our food, seriously..


this is the photo of a housing area in HK named Fotan. I was on my way to another studio where d dancers are rehearsing..


hahaha this is a pic i took in a toilet @ Harbour City,Tsim Sha Tsui..i went there to get something for Kak Nita ( Anita Sarawak)..it is also the by co-incidence chance that i manage to leave the studios and to walk around to c part of HK.

Harbour City, many may know this place where all the branded stuff is here.. from Prada to Gucci, you name it..everything but none of it are of my kind, how to afford a???!!

but ok also la, at least i manage to see the way Hongkie, of all ages from teenage to old ladies shops..they'll go into the branded shop like Prada and shops as though they are at a normal shopping outlet..the high range of price doesn't seems to be their concern..but of cox, this only apply to the limited HK that i've seen..


my manager, Ms. Teri bought me to 'yam zhou char' at Tsim Sha Tsui in one of the morning when we are slightly free..afterall, to me if i did not manage to at least try out HK dim sum in HK, this trip seems completely meaningless..dah-lah i dun get to c most of HK like 'the ladies street', 'man's street', 'wax museum', 'temples @ Tai Yu Shan' and etc etc etc..


wonderful dim sum...yum yum yum..


this is d underground lrt that we took to Mongkok on the second last day of our stay in HK...Finally Mongkok!!! Mongkok a place like Petaling street where the ppl and the shops are nothing compares to Harbour city, a diff living standard and view of HK..it is also place where the 'ladies street' is so nearby..but so close yet so far..

we jus manage to drop by at the shopping mall right next to the station to have a quick walk as we need to rush back to the HK colliseum for rehearsal ( not me but the artistes, band and dancers). i have to be there incase they look for me....


this is d shopping mall that i'm talking about..


few HK artiste were doing some charity auction at the mall..artiste like Sun Yao Wei, Kary and etc etc..newbies that i dunno..

c d crowd? even though they get to c artistes everyday, yet they actually have fans following their idols around and yelling slogans, name and high-pitched tone to support the artistes..trust me, they even have banners...


HK trip was not a great one but at least i still smiles greatly...hahahahahahaha *joking*..

p/s: no choice la, fresh grad ma...F**k d terms fresh grad!!

sometimes i wonder is it because of my look? to many ppl, i looked like a kid though i dun act like one..i dun talk or have fun like how i did when i'm around with my frens..i dun even talk much when i'm working..it's all about work that's all...but yet no one take me seriously.. pathetic-nia..

to be continue..

MIA- why?

Been missing in action cause i was in HK last month for our company's 4 Asian Divas concert. It was held 2 nights at the Hong Kong Colliseum. My unimates joked about me being d second 'malaysian' to be on colliseum stage after Micheal guang kakakakak..okok jokes aside, Hong Kong to me is...

Hotel room + studio + Hong Kong Colliseum + hotel room.

I hardly got time to walk around seriously..no wonder ppl says work is no fun...

I dun Hongkie..one word, i just dun like them...

bk to my story..

on d way to aiport..

look at d sky, d sun was just rising..

Q-ing up at the airport..to depart at gate 12..

this is d plane that i took, cathay pacific, wonderful flight but average service..this is my first flight not counting the one i had when i was in my mum's belly..so it was pretty exciting for me to go through the whole process..


i love d personal tv i had hehehe i watched "little feet" on board and suprisingly, everyone was telling me how bad it is the cartoon but i actually enjoyed it..i was laughing to myself kakaka
do u know? i actually enjoy being on d plane, it is where i can off my phone officially and just b with myself & my tv caused there's nothing much to do..

We stayed at the METROPOLIS Hotel near d colliseum..this is d view from my room..


from my room, i will be able to c the 'turtle head's ' in HK..it is a fengshui symbol as d HK-ie believes..they said that, the turtle will bring Hong Kong island to the sea avoiding the bad 'chi' from the mountain behind..


this is d side view of the colliseum..

I did manage to get into one of those HK taxi while on my way to Thai embassy to do visa for my band and dancers..


it was rather spacecious inside..but, i always have nausea after every taxi ride..it's plainly me or their driving skills?


the famous traffic jam..

i managed to catch Harlem's concert the first day i was there in HK...couldn't believe my luck that i can c him again after a year..he was the first artiste i assisted before and till today he is still as wonderful as before..

the show as wonderful, the stage effect was great, jus looked at the 'H' sign..no wonder it's HK colliseum..

I actually met some Taiwanese in HK after Harlem's concert. They are the crews that came over to Genting for shows mostly Taiwan artistes and it was wonderful to see them again and all of a sudden, it feels as though we have known each other a long long time ago..guess this is wat ppl says' in foreign place, if ever u meet someone u know, it feels closer than before..'..

to be continue...

jus to let u all know that i am alive..
shall update the blog soon..

us

as u all may know, this is my mother..


and as you know this is me...


and this is us...


hehehe i forced my mum to take this pic hahahah

good night sleep

for the first time in 10 months..i actually slept well last night..

No turning side to side, no switching from one end of the bed to another..

No waking up in d middle of the night with tears rolling down the cheeks..

No no thinking of thousands of reasons to stay in bed and not going to work in the morning..

I had a good night sleep last night..

:)

wat is left by little sq~

little green alien by cousin sis for xmas..





a mahjong card set xmas present that it is a must for me to get through luckydraw..gift by laiyee~hehe


books by ping for xmas~




the last pic already look blurry...

above are the last few pictures took using the little nokia sq that has been following me since i was in my uni years..

it has bid goodbye to me last week as the specialist says, it can't be rescued and it is it's time to go......it has served well..

well done, sq~ i shall miss all our good times..thanks for everything..

p/s: *sign* need to spend again to get another good cam...how.....

sunway lagoon...

when was the last time u visted sunway lagoon?


hehe i enjoyed mine because i have them wit me... thanks guys.. :)

jus a note..

this photo was taken last few weeks with Edmond Leung..he is d sweetest, most humble, down to earth and truly friendly artiste I've ever met, he do not classified you as a crew but as someone in a team with him..he do not classified you as a passer by but he took the initiative to acknowledge your present by remembering you and meeting your eyes whenever he talked not only to his own hk crews but including us too....remember how I praised Harlem Yu sometime ago..yea, Edmond is unbelievely nice!..he's on top of my chart now hahahaha but of cox it doesn't mean the rest are not as good as he is just that he really am nice and worth every credits given to him.. :) hahaha m gonna get his cd for him to sign for his coming concert at genting with ronald cheng...must support him la~~

Oh yea, i met Jacky Cheung as well as a fan and not part of the crew...wat a waste..if only my company gets to be the organizer for his coming concert...am so excited to c hi and yes though as a " kor san" he is indeed profeesional and extremely friendly, humble, nice and funny hehehe..i manage to c him upclose and even shook hand with him and get his album signed..hehehehe i realli sounds like a fan hehehehe i met my junior Shinsar at the meet the fans at sg wang kekeke so next time where there is stars, there is shinsar kekeke it ryhms man...hehehe btw i went there with another crazy fan of jacky,eechia... :)

how i wish i can post a pic of my cd here but my camera has officially pronouced "dead" last week when i took it to the specialist..haih...my handphone is sending signals of "dying" soon too...no money la!!dun give up first can a??? am struggling in between getting a camera and a handphone...aha! u must be thinking i can get a handphone with camera function, but they dun usually come with the "focus" or other special functions as camera has...so am thinking to get either one...am still thinking...

oh back to the exact point that i actually wanna highlight in this post kekeke...c the different between the date i took pic with edmond and vanness wu..hahhaa vanness wu pic was 3 weeks back before i took pic with edmond kekeke..

Jus wanna post it about it cause i looked realli round at that time..kekeke



vanness is ok as well but a bit quiet and i wasn't truly a fan of f4 so ok lol..not bad...

jus ignore this..

for no practical reason i am not feeling too good today as i woke up...nothing seems to be going well thought nothings seems to really GONE BAD either..but seriously i can't realli recal when was the last time i actually felt burden lifted and trully happy..

mayb it's just because of myself entirely, i was not happy with this and that..at the same time i can't figure out what i actually wanted in my life..if only i can see or even picture what lies ahead for me..or what is my goal, my aim, my wishes..i hate living in doubt...yes, my blog has eventually become a place where i rant mostly about unhappy things which is bad...i know things are not good..temper has been getting from bad to worst..i dun like who i am nowadays..spare me pls..

i wanted to find somthing to do, to do something that i truly like, somehting that will paint a smile on my face...i used to love rearranging my room,cleaning, packing, sewing and reading..yes i sound like a "yellow face lady" but now mayb because of work, i find it hard to find that sort of energy again to continue my interest...

i love dancing, dancing makes me happy apart from helping me to lose weight..hehehe am toying with the idea to go for a dancing class but again the fees and the idea of going alone ain't realli encouraging..God, what i wanna do with my life???? must realli try to discover my happiness from another source soon or else this blog is soooo gonna die from depression..

sorry for my blog no longer bring happiness but ranting, i know it is frustrating.,i promise to find back myself soon for the sake of the ppl around me and for the sake of myself too... no worry, i know, i can identify and i am aware of my problems.. shall sort it out asap.. God, i pray and ask for the courage and please show me your way..

hate it whenever "aunty" came for a visit..she always manage to screw up my mind, emotion and body.. man, i need a rest..

Dear all, excuse me if i sound like i am complaining this and that about my life but hopefully this is jus another phase of my life..shall grow out of it it soon..i hope...jus ignore it k, am jus ranting to get it out from my system..no worry..

I WANNA CHANGE!!! I WANT SOMETHING NICE,HAPPENING AND MEANINGFUL AGAIN IN MY LIFE!!! I WANT MY OLDSELF BACK!!!!!
THERE!!!!

a call

i received a call this morning..

me: hello

ds: hello, is that tasha?

(ain't u suppose to say, good morning, may i speak to tasha pls?make sure the good morning and PLEASE are there..that's d basic courtesy one must have especially when you are not talking to your fren and yes, especially when that person have not even the slightest idea why you called and who the heck are you. )

me: yes i am, wat can i do for you?

ds: my name is ds and i'm connie's colleague.

(ain't u suppose to say, hi , my name is ds .I'm calling from xxx magazine, and i am connie's colleague. Connie gave me your phone number and perhaps you can help me to do a simple street interview. First, she din explain who she is, second she din mention where is she from and lastly the big prob is, if it is a street interview, y r u calling me? i'm obviously in the office not on the street. Plus, how sure are you that i only have a fren by the name connie??)

me: ok...then?

ds: will you be going to sunway pyramid this sat?

me: i might be going to sunway lagoon with my frens but not to the pyramid.

ds: then can you pls bring as many frens as you can?

(ain't u suppose to say, I will be doing a street interview at sunway pyramid and i was wondering if you will be there this sat?

i think wat she actually meant was not street interview but rather a focus group...because she needs to know the number of frens tat i will be bringing for her to prepare her stuff.. if it is street interview, you jus have to do it LIVE, there's no one to call, make appointment with ppl and lastly instruct them to go all the way to sunway jus to let you do the interview with NO CHARGE AT ALL..
moreover, i do not OWE you any damn favor and so do my frens..my frens and I have no obligation to go to pyramid jus to meet up wit you and especially when you can't differentiate between focus group n street interview......or perhaps it is a street interview then it is your job to make it clear and explain to me at the very beginning on y you choose to call, make appointment and etc with interviewee and this is actually the process of what you mean by street interview)

me: huh?!! bringing my frens too?

ds: yes, what time will you be there? can you give me a specific time?

me: i'm not sure wat time we will go there, so i can't confirm with you on the time.

ds: but at least can you give me a time?

me: miss, i can't confirm d time for u as i said, i dunno wat time i'l be there..

ds: then i will be there around 10am and will stay for about 1-3 hours. y dun u call me when u r there?

(ain't you suppose to say, i will be there around 10am and will stay for about 1-3 hours but i will give you a call on sat morning to see if you will be somewhere around sunway at that time. Perhaps i can come and find you...

note, you dun ask an interviewee to call u, u call up to the interviewee bcox u r asking for a favor, u should do follow-up with your case..i dun mind helping, infact i wil try to help as much as i can bcox they are my fren's colleague, my fren's frens are my frens 2.....i have experiences helping my fren's colleague for interview too but if this is d way u r asking for a help..then forget it..sorry to my frens, u guys are great but i jus dun think i can help your fren..paiseh ya~)

me: huh?! call u? y dun you call me?

ds: ....oh mayb i'l call you again on sat.

me: ok, bye.

if this girl is to be in my so-called hell office, or even as my junior..she will not look good, trust me...

btw, i thought she is just a trainee but i jus happens to find out that the girl is actually an editor..

p/s: perhaps i've left the world of journalism too long...i no longer understand the process and style of it..so if i am wrong, please forgive me.. but, my stand is, i still think she should have explain more..

p/s 2: this is no good, my job has caused me to develope a bad habit which i call " the tendency to correct ppl and found that silly mistakes irritates me big time" ..

thanks to ah wong from my office..nowadays, keeping my temper and patient is getting harder..poor editor..but again those mistakes can hardly be accepted especially when they are from someone who is so rich with experiences, logically speaking..that's my stand.

p/s 3: to my frens, i hope i'm not to harsh on this..pls know that if it is within my ability, my help will always be available for you guys..unless, u know..like this case..

same dream

since last week i've been having nightmares..nightmares that leaves me awake and disturbed at night...sleeping has eventually becoming something that i dun look forward these few days especially tonight.. i'm afraid of falling asleep, entering the dream, the same dream that had been continously played every night as if it was a series of drama..

in my dreams everything seems so dark and everything seems so dead..i have an uneasy feeling throughout the dream and i heard people calling my names...i tried to wake up but again my dreams seems too real that i can't seems to leave my dream..i told Monica about the nightmare that's been disturbing me endlessly..Monica is my colleague..

in my dream, i saw this little chinese girl..she was about 6 years old and she has her hair tightly banded into a ponytail and she wore a white dress with white lace stoking and white shoes..i'm not sure if i had ever see this girl before, but for unknown reason i was angry at her...she seems to know me and realise that i was angry but she looked calm..she has this pair of piercing eyes that looked straight through me, sending a shiver down my spine..

i guess, i was angry, i was really angry because i was afraid..i was really afraid..

every night, i saw her running in a building and i was chasing her but i don't why...until last night..i finally saw the building..it has a big field in front with old cars parked distantly from one and another..the sky looked gloomy and as though it was about to rain, there were wind blowing and the place, the building and the cars looked old as though it has been left for a very long long time.....there was no one there except for the girl and last night she pointed to a direction that left me frozen...i saw the sign of "hospital"..

i was at a hospital...and someone just died. i was realli afraid, i dreamt about coffins and dead people before but last night it was really real..i wanted to wake up but i can't..i just can't..then i heard my name again...then i woke up..rachel called me...it was already 9am today and i need to follow her to damansara height to do my passport..

i feel so uneasy..

just as i was typing this post, trying to figure out who is the little girl..at the corner of my eyes, i saw a white shadow ran across in the mirror and this is not the first time..

she has been visiting.

heart vs brain

have you ever wonder how strong can you be? what is the limitation to your patient? are you bad tempered? are you a panic freak?

i'm an emotional junk..i absorbed all kinds of emotional strongly..i cried when i'm unhappy..i shed tears easily..i laughed when i'm happy, i go crazy easily..i live my life with my heart and not with my brain..i dun think much as i always believe feel it wit your heart and you will hear what your heart tells you..sometimes, we ignore what our hearts tells us as our brain has been formatted in such a way that we ought to think and act rationally..

i hate it when my brain sounds louder than my heart..

dun mind me..i'm just rambling out of boredom..

things will be fine..

the sunlight from my window woke me up today, i dun feel good..i feel depressed infact.. i dun talk much recently, i guess i was speechless..there seems nothing worth to be talked about..i feel like a dead body waking up every morning, going to the hell office that i hold such a strong hatred and grudge against it..where is my soul? where are all my thoughts? where are those hopes and imaginations that motivates me to work hard and continue to stay strong and braved through all those disasters moments in the office?

the sound of children laughing and splashing water from the swimming pool next to my block greets me morning..how i wish i can be a kid once more where life seems less complicated..last night it was the same, i heard some kids were talking and joking downstairs..the sound of see-saw and swings..they seems to be having fun there..

things will be fine..

hope things will be fine for you too...

apologies for not being able to update as frequent as possible..

life is in a mess
or rather in a turning point.
life is uncertain now
i need some time..
cause only time will pass
will bury and will clear all the tears.

re-adjusting my life piriority
perhaps in that way
things will be hopeful and beautiful once again..

at times, perhaps is the dream that we which to achieve
that makes life seems worthwhile to fight for
that gives us a secret energy to hold on and be strong under all circumstances

when dreams are shattered
hopes are gone
as cruel as it sounds
life still goes on..

i just need time
to dream again
to be hopeful again..

no worry, i'l be alright
i just need some time..

dream

Last nite I had a dream, a pretty much weird dream as I can’t recall having any dreams happening at SM Convent before.In the dream, I was on my way to school. As we came nearer to the main gate, I actually saw an accident by the roadside in between SRK Convent and SM Convent. I think somebody was killed as I saw people carrying caskets, one for adult and one a smaller one for a child.

It was Ping who drove me to school. I saw him in the car but I was sitting at the back. Some girl was sitting next to him. I guess I was too in hurry to go to school that I actually feel happy to be at the back. Trust me, if it’s in reality, I’ll definitely habiskan him…okok mayb habiskan myself instead, who knows? The fault might be at my side…

Anyway back to the dream, I entered the main gate near the canteen and the corridor was empty. It was a gloomy evening. The very next minute, I was in a classroom with all my secondary buddies. I dreamt about us, the whole gang of us at SM Convent.

We were in the class, which is
- Near to the softball field in the middle of the school,
- The class next to the stairs going up to F3 biology class.
- The class that is near to the tamil school’s canteen.
- The class that…I wonder if u guys know which class that I am talking about..

Nevertheless, I guess we were in f3 as we were not in our pengawas, pengawas kantin or even pengawas perpustakaan uniform. But again, funny as it may sound, we were all actually attending ‘Fizik’ class, I guess la, as I saw Mr.Tan a.k.a Nobita standing in front talking kekekeke.

We were giggling and laughing at the back then I woke up…

Despite the accident that happened at the early part of the dream, I really do miss the fact that we were having fun in the class. I really wonder what we chatting about, we seems to be having so much fun and indeed we had a great time back in SM Convent. I enjoyed my schooling years, I shared so much wonderful experiences with all the girls and I do miss every laughter, tears and arguments that we had.

Those wonderful overnite, basketball training, volleyball training, JV marching, campings, choir and endless etc etc etc.

Thank you buddies for making 'growing up stage' a wonderful one..

i think i'm in love..

i had once fallen in love with someone else when i was dating my bf, ping. I know how wrong and unwise it was..it's a shame when u know how to advise and even scolded frens that are stepping into the wrong path but i guess it's true, no one can see themselves as clear as others do..i failed to see my own mistake and it failed to control the heart that leads me to him... i didn't make up any excuses or even blaming anyone for what i did, i had even told ping about him..

sometimes i wonder, will ping leave me one day eventually afterall, my heart doesn't seems to be with him all the time..

those butterflies and silly smiles..i found myself stupid at times when i realised i am actually smiling while walking back from lunch / going home..it is so embarrasing but i can't control myself.. i think i'm in love again with someone else..

The feeling was amazing..it kinda lifted up my day, brighten up my life and even sweeten every little things in my life..everything seems so beautiful..he truly capture my heart..entirely and deeply..as i was typing this, i have a sense of guilt as i mentioned to ping again..causing him another heart break..

But as i always said, if you realli love someone, you should say it out before it's too late..

i'm in love with him..

hahahahahahhahahahhahaha I AM SOOOOOOO MADLY IN LOVE WITH BI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG, he was sooooo amazing!!! no doubt that his dancing moves are slightly alike with MJ's but he has his own charms and skills that truly deserved laud applauded. He's humble and he's cute, DEFFINATELY! His concert is the best that i've seen so far..from the stage, to the effects and his well choreographed dance moves, and his occasionally shy smiles.. man,he drives me nuts! realli he did.. he was awesome..he makes me smile silly -ly hehehe

i think i am in love~

this pic was taken from google..too bad he din unbutton his shirt in KL..how sad..

His concert was great and so were his songs..he called his fans 'his babies" kakaka though knowing this is only part of the gimmick but hey, i dun mind cox that will make me his baby too kakakakakakkakak u know whenever he starts dancing, i can't help but scream!!!!!!!! i screamed the whole nite neh..my god, he reali catch your breath away..oh dear ~ i think i'm in love~

tell u a secret kekeke, since the BSB's and Michael & Victor's posters on my wall back in my secondary years, I have already left those 'small girl' period long long long time ago.... now, i actually have his poster in my KL bedroom kakakakakakak

this is d poster i had in my room kekeke c those muscles..kekeke

i first notice about him in the drama fullhouse which i believe many has seen it..i used to think he's cute but i din't know i'l fall for him.. man, even when i'm typing this i feel like a kid..a silly one kakakakakka

i am sooooooooo happy muahahahah muahahahahahah MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i think i'm crazy in love with him..my bi.. "bi is rain in korean neh~"

can die man!

my concert tic hehe

rambling..

I am a pieces and I live in my own world. Rich with imagination, I can easily picture the invisible agendas happening even with my eyes wide open. At times, I am thankful that I have another world in my mind that I can let myself go and search for comfort that the real world doesn’t have.

Some might think I am being ignorant. Running away from the fact and the concealing the ugliness of world’s reality. But again, it could be a positive way of living where I am learning to see things more optimistically. As the saying goes, everything starts from a dream. I read from a book called something like the 9 essential elements in successful love and life. One element that I really like was with talent and desire, dreams will come true.

As we work, we might not realize what lies beneath us, as we tend to bury all our dreams under the piles of work and occupied with the business of life. Been toying with the idea to do something recently, something that might help me to realize my talent as well as fulfilling my desire. As I mentioned the phrase ‘to realize my talent’, I happen to realize another thing, I seems to know what my talent is or talents are but at the same time I wonder if I am talented at all? Is there anything I can do without much difficulty, or am I just merely doing things thinking that is my talent when in actual nothing perfects comes out of it. Or as the saying goes, talent needs brushing up. Am i brushing up it right? or do i have a talent to brush up?

Growing up is certainly not easy. Do you find yourself thinking who you are and what can you do about your life? Do you just live yourself as how it is or do you actually know what and how you want your life to be? Many times, obstacles and challenges come, leaving you fighting to struggle and to overcome it, either you parish, survived or even celebrate your victory with glory. Every of these time, you learn, you grow and you understand the way of life.
Life experiences they called it.

The richer your life experiences are, the richer your life would be.
The richer your life experiences are, the more cunning you’ll be?
The richer your life experiences are, the wiser you will be?
The richer your life experiences are, the lonelier you’ll be?

Anyone close to me will think that I tend to think too much, thinking the unnecessary. Thinking things like what I am writing here now, complicating myself, conflicting my own thoughts, principles and feelings. Yes, I can be very complicated. How bout you?

Do you know what I was imagining this morning as I walked into the lift? I was thinking what the heck was the lift stopping at 4th floor for so long ( I stayed at 3rd floor) when there’s no one in the lift when I stepped in.

Then immediately my brain tells me, the lift was opened for the invisible residents of the building and yes, I am in the same lift as they are.

Brilliant when you have a brain that functioned and imagined so fantastically.

..

Come to think of it, everytime I need to blog, I found that I have the tendency to start off with “ It’s been long ever since I blogged”

Guess once you’ve left the blog for a certain period of time, you will no longer have ‘that much’ of things to ‘say’ again. Or mayb it is because, I have infact nothing much to say..afterall, life now is nothing but work work work n work.

With almost the whole day of your life are being spent in the office, what else do you get you c? Looking back at my previous post, I released that I used to have a fun life, my posts sounded happy and there’s a lot of daily-life photos taken. It truly reflects how I was at that moment. Even the kind of English that I used to write sounded better than what I am using rite now. The flair doesn’t seem to be there anymore. My posts even sounded ‘pointless’. But am not saying that my english and writing was that good in the past.

This is no good, since working, there seems to be less and less thankful and happy post. Guess, people tend to forget how to be grateful. Come to think of it, there are couple of personal things that I am grateful and thankful of. If you guys remember I once mentioned that my mum as diagnosed with Hepatitis C when I was in F6,that was about 5 years back. The good news is my mum is officially cleared from the virus after all the painful and heart-aching injections she took including those long-journey traveling from tpg to selayang hospital. Thank God, all these have finally come to an end.

Couldn’t be thankful enough, I really should go to church one Sunday as my prayers has always been answered. Hasn’t been a really good mutton though..soli soli I mean lamb, lamb of God hehehe.

Secondly, my ever mysterious and quiet bf finally has opened up himself and actually ‘talked’ to me…hehehe he never like to disclose wat was he thinking, how was he feeling and things like that. I know, it’s different for guys to talk and to express themselves, but hey do you really think we are the‘worms in your heart’? mai siao la! He doesn’t actually started talking like a chatter box but at least he share with me what he has been thinking. He actually has his own financial planning and it is good to hear that he actually did some research and keeping his ears an eyes open for opportunities. It might sounded silly, but to me, it gives me a sense of security as it will be meaningless to follow a guy who has no planning and thoughts for future. But this is just merely my own opinion.

There are some other kind of blessings that was showered upon me. Working life has been improving and * finger crossed* I hope this environment will continue to growth better and better. It is really a situation where “ it’s a blue sky after a rain”.. aiya in Chinese it’s called “yu guo tian qing” la..

Better go home now, I have a date with myself to go swimming hehehe.

Till then, hopefully I can update more frequently..

so far away.

Innocent days seems so far away..





Feel the heart..something not everyone know how to do..