same dream

since last week i've been having nightmares..nightmares that leaves me awake and disturbed at night...sleeping has eventually becoming something that i dun look forward these few days especially tonight.. i'm afraid of falling asleep, entering the dream, the same dream that had been continously played every night as if it was a series of drama..

in my dreams everything seems so dark and everything seems so dead..i have an uneasy feeling throughout the dream and i heard people calling my names...i tried to wake up but again my dreams seems too real that i can't seems to leave my dream..i told Monica about the nightmare that's been disturbing me endlessly..Monica is my colleague..

in my dream, i saw this little chinese girl..she was about 6 years old and she has her hair tightly banded into a ponytail and she wore a white dress with white lace stoking and white shoes..i'm not sure if i had ever see this girl before, but for unknown reason i was angry at her...she seems to know me and realise that i was angry but she looked calm..she has this pair of piercing eyes that looked straight through me, sending a shiver down my spine..

i guess, i was angry, i was really angry because i was afraid..i was really afraid..

every night, i saw her running in a building and i was chasing her but i don't why...until last night..i finally saw the building..it has a big field in front with old cars parked distantly from one and another..the sky looked gloomy and as though it was about to rain, there were wind blowing and the place, the building and the cars looked old as though it has been left for a very long long time.....there was no one there except for the girl and last night she pointed to a direction that left me frozen...i saw the sign of "hospital"..

i was at a hospital...and someone just died. i was realli afraid, i dreamt about coffins and dead people before but last night it was really real..i wanted to wake up but i can't..i just can't..then i heard my name again...then i woke up..rachel called me...it was already 9am today and i need to follow her to damansara height to do my passport..

i feel so uneasy..

just as i was typing this post, trying to figure out who is the little girl..at the corner of my eyes, i saw a white shadow ran across in the mirror and this is not the first time..

she has been visiting.