Dear rachel:
Girl, appreciate wat u r telling me..seriously without u ppl always there encouraging n supporting, it will be difficult..with you ppl around, i always believe nothing matters cox we have each other supporting one another during every meeting..
these days been realli complicated..i prepare myself for the real world but again i can't help thinking am i that weak? i hope i am not...knowing wat v have all gone through.. girl, i admire your courage and strenght..
when i get your call today, can't help feeling blessed to have you bunch reaching out to held me from falling.. thank you girls n guy (chu, one n only male with us)..thank you all for being there to support..am looking forward to c u ppl..
cyen drop me a msg too..both your msgs brought me to tears..thank you..
Dear bro;
i hope i did not disgrace the family as i had tried my best..i know i did..at times i feel like explaining because i hate the idea of ppl thinking that i am weak..i know i am not...i really did tried my best..
"Don’t forget, you are the only person who can decide…
What you want to be,
What you want to see,
What you want to hear,
What you want to learn,
What mood you want to have in each day."
i am always a happy girl because i choose to do what u say above, but God knows how far have i walked... how much have i done.. but guess it is not easy to learn how to to wear a mask when your heart is crying deep down inside..
it is really hard for me to make a decision, i dun wanna call it a quit, i wanna fight it through but knowing there's no point fighting..there's no point going to a dead end...never have it came across my mind that it came so early..never, i don't wat it to be..therefore, i am still thinking..but i am unhappy..
i've lost myself recently..i don't know should i be myself or should i learn to be someone else knowing this is how the real world is....
Thank you bro for the wording but again i hope i did not disgrace the family and did not disgrace you as your sister..i don't wan to disgrace the family..i don't want to.. please tell me what must i do?
Dear Jason;
Guess i learn everything, but i never manage to learn how to wear a mask..after this, will i wear a mask? i'm afraid that i will change, i don't like the one that i have to change to be..
Monday, October 09, 2006
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A mask, in its own definition :
ReplyDelete1) A "PROTECTIVE" covering worn over the face.
2) Hide under a "FALSE" appearance.
There, its about how you be yourself in front this group of people, while retaining/hiding your trueself (protect yourself); and being your true self in another group of people (taking of the FALSE face).
The only universal rule that never change is people change. Its how you change, from good to bad, from bad to worse, from bad to good or from good to better.
You should know better what type of mask to wear while work and after work.
In order to survive, sometimes you just have to be someone that is not yourself; but must learn not to be like them at the same time.
It's though, but its just a matter of time before you know how to play the game correctly.
Until then, stand strong and God bless. I hope everything will be fine at the end of the day.
*hugs*
p/s : Did I get off topic?
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ReplyDeleteQuitting something that is not right for you is not giving up. It's just for you to look for something more suitable for you so that you can show your full potential.
ReplyDeleteYou didn't bring any disgrace to anyone cos you are not giving up. You are moving on to something better.
Keep it up, girl! Miss ya... =)
hard to get comfortable in that kind of environment, i understand. but soemtimes we just have to change so that we can fit ourselves into the place.. yes.. i know it's hard.. coz we have our own perosnalities, we know what we like and what we don't. the same thing here.. I seem liek doing fine.. but actually, there's conflicts occuring from time to time in my mind.. and i am really alone here, no one there to really help me besides some nice strangers, and me myself.. :) you will be fine no matter what you decide.. yes.. coz you have all those you love around you.. :) be brave and stay healthy. :) take care ok? muaks.
ReplyDelete- rachel -
ReplyDeletedude...
bad people are around lah dude.
feel upset and frustrated each time you met a bad guy or bad girl?
of course nope.
after work, forget everything and leave the gossips in the office.
yeah yeah..talking is much easier.
but, what else can we do then?
we knew you are not a weak gal.
perhaps it's time for you to go stronger?
who knows?
these people will be a mativator to get you go higher man...
the best way to revenge -->
do better than them.
they are takinig your credit?
nvm...
they won't be so lucky each time.
i'm sure your boss can see it someday although he or she is blind.
no worries lah dude.
keep going.
we are stil here to hear your stories.
woi char boh!! so long neva come in jln jln liao.. got problem izzit, nvm we got skol, lao hor and heinekken waiting for u ar!!
ReplyDeleteslap kao they all if u wanted to! turn into "sotong" face n show it to them oso can.. but dun gif up!!
if beh ngam, look for other job lar, wat for wanna face these bunch of monkeys everyday..
but if u like to stay there for a lil while, then apply my theory.. ermm.. sipek effective eh.. K*N EE PUN BOH ENG AR!! hahahah
sAr n limpek wil be there for u!!
别担心那么多,要好好照顾自己哦!
ReplyDeleteeverything will b alright!!!!!!!!!
:)
Hi Tasha,
ReplyDeleteI was shocked when i realised so many things happened to you recently. So sorry, ignore what are going on with my frens...too bad.
I still not sure what is the whole story, but i understood you are suffering in this working environment.
This was a tough decision, as i said making decision is not easier. But, everything is looking forward, do not under estimate your capability, we all are here waiting for a chance and so do you. How the chance comes by, it is how u going to grab the chance.
We are learning to solve problems, this is the reality and cruel society. Who can adapt it, who can survive. This is how the process we grow up and learn some "surviving" skills.
No mather where you go, it is no different, just depend how u can lasting the "black" atmosphere, then u can survive whereever u go.
However, any decision u made, is not the ending, instead is the new beginning, never forget the ex-experience, fell down, standing up, you can see the new day is coming!Go forward, you can make it change and never give up!
Don't forget, no one are beaten u down, unless yourself. How tough and difficulties the time is, but has gone. We are always here, u knew that.
You can make it different, so that is what i'm trying to do now, and hope you can going more further, because you are tasha!
Cheers up, my sisters and brother there, i care about u all!
jason: hey hey hey, thanks for the trouble man..heheh no la u din get off the topic but am trying to let me see it clearer heheh thanks man * a hug for ya too* hehehe
ReplyDeletebut again i found ti really hard not to be myself, so success seems rather far from me at the moment, i can't tell who will i become in future but i always believe, "touch and feel the heart'..i wouldn't wan to live my life with guilts and sins..though yes, i am no angel n i commit sin like ano muggles hehehe (sorry ya, so into harry potter)
but again, perhaps like u say, i should know how to "do"..like cantonese, "sek do" ma!! hehehe really a lot to learn hehe but nevertheless, thanks man for all the comments... i get yr point heheh
wendy: do u know that when i read yr comment, i am really touched and glad that you supported me with yr words n everything...i really think i am a failure but u did not see me as one..thank you..miss ya a lot too..when can v hav seafood??hehe
myles: conflict man, that's the word!!! my heart, my mind n other factors forcing me to make decision n decision making process sucks big time..yea n like u say, at least i have ppl here, family frens..but u r not alone too girl, u have us..though we might not be able to talk, meet or even leave comments on yr blog..but we will always keep track of you..so u r alone k! you'l b suprise how many ppl care and being there..i reliase, there r a lot of ppl who read my blog but they do not leave comments..but that doesn't mean they dun care i believe hehe so there r many ppl who reads yr blog tooo!! so if ever u need to let it out as i do, do let it out ya~ take care~
rachel: hey dude..am glad to b in the sohay group man, at elast i know i have u sohay to hear my story n caring for me..hey yr post for me, thanks a lot girl..it sure touched my heart..am glad n thankful..
and good says also on
"after work, forget everything and leave the gossips in the office."
"they won't be so lucky each time."
hahahahaha i dun care la...now jus ignore nia la..like u say,perhaps this will make me stronger..i dunno but life goes on rite?!.. no point getting all messed up becox of these ppl..u too a...must b strong leh!!1 if u need us u know we will b there for u too!!! how's life? how's work? long tiem din meet up d la~ u know how to console me so i hope u know how to console yrself too ya..but again, tell ppl easy, tell ourselves,man harder than anything..so anythign let us know, n let us console u back k!!
h&e kia soo lang: hahaha man u r classic la!!! kakak never failed to fool around hehehe but hey man, that sure cheers me up..hey must beer wit u ppl one nite la, i won't lose this man, beware u all kekekekeke btw yr thoery suprb kekeke K*N EE PUN BOH ENG AR!!! kakakakakaka plus 'sotong' face too diff la, only 'sotong' can show 'sotong ' face k hehehehe thanks man, know u n sa will b there!! thanks man..thankful sa, found u all, then i can go nuts wit u all kakakakak
greeny: u like to test my chinese one leh..谢谢你哦。。我会加油加油，不会在让人欺负。。你也是哦！有人欺负你的话， 要告诉 halston 他们和我 ok?!...有可能我可以帮忙since 我有经验了 hahahahah man my chinese sucks kakakka must got a lot of mistake so i hope u understand leh~ kekeke but u diam diam anjing, bite mati orang kakakaka who knows u will be more fierce than i am when kena bully...i only can 'pa pa pai pai' at home nia, outside like die dog nia..NONONONON I won't let ppl bully me anymore!!!
dreame: u r not as dreame as yr nick is..in fact u r the most calm n down' to earth person i know...girl, u r not late k, nonit sorry..i know u r bz n if i got prob, i know u will b there also..
even from your words i can tell how down to eartnh u r..u know after meeting wit u ppl the other nite at cheras, man i can see that u r getting stronger n seriously, it did encourage me to be as strong as u r...we must fight together ma rite!! i kenot give up cox we motivate n support each other..but i am not forcing myself jus that perhaops i should see things more clearly b4 i make decision
and yr below words.." This was a tough decision, as i said making decision is not easier. But, everything is looking forward, do not under estimate your capability, we all are here waiting for a chance and so do you. How the chance comes by, it is how u going to grab the chance.
We are learning to solve problems, this is the reality and cruel society. Who can adapt it, who can survive. This is how the process we grow up and learn some "surviving" skills.
No mather where you go, it is no different, just depend how u can lasting the "black" atmosphere, then u can survive whereever u go.
However, any decision u made, is not the ending, instead is the new beginning, never forget the ex-experience, fell down, standing up, you can see the new day is coming!Go forward, you can make it change and never give up!"
thanks girl!! u have us with u too k!!take care n hope to c u all very evry soon, in the mean time, kambadeh to everybody ya!!!!!