poems and short phrases..

i used to write poems, short phrases...nothing grand, bombastic or even marvellous, they can't be called proper poem... they are jus simple words..words that tells what's deep inside the heart..

i believe alot in believing what our heart tells..have your ever encounter a situation where you r rational, you are able to think clearly but your heart knows better..it is the so call rational thinking that holds you back but your deep down you know wat you really wanted because your heart can tell..

think with your mind
feel it with your heart
for your heart sees what your mind don't

i lost quite a lot of them, some jus went into the dustbin while i'm clearing my room..some were written on my uni notes and off it goes along as i bid goodbye to my uni life..

at times, okok make it most of the time, there's grammar mistakes and etc etc but again i enjoy writing them...i dunno y, perhaps bcox i'm a pieces, a typical one in fact hehe..i write most of them when i am overwhelmed with sadness, happiness or gladness...when emotions turned complicated..

*the hearts that remembers
the gestures that enriched it*

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*fears shall be conquere
challenge shall be over ride
for love is my guide*

i write for love, the love of my life..i write when love gets messy and when love sweeten and melted away all the pain... but sadly to say, i wrote them mostly when i'm down mayb because that is how i can express myself..afterall, who needs words when laughters said enough about happiness.. :)

i'm sorry..
for i took away the smiles and happiness..
replacing them with tears in the hearts
both in yours and mine..
wonder if u'll remember me always
or will u shower yr love upon another
the thoughts pain me deeply
perhaps letting go
is the only way to be

i write for friendship.. in friendship, i gain and i lost..i have many beautiful friendships, frens from primary sch, secondary, pre-uni and uni frens..we still keep in touch and i treasure everyone of them...they gave me strangth and support when i needed them the most...to name them, i can hardly finish bcox each and everyone of them are all my buddies, frens that i truly treasure..as wat i always says, once u r my fren, u will always b..

afterall, being frens is about sincerity and faith..i lost too in friendship...i was hurt n i hurted ppl too but God loves me enough to give them back to me..now their friendships are truly gold..

our friendship is a gift from God
there shall be no battles that can't be won
u shall never be alone
for there are us who will always be there
with supports as armours
and love as swords..

i write for myself, in life when there's so many ups and downs, so many obstacles to go through.. i write to encourage myself and hopefully to be able to encourage others as well.. i learn to be strong, and i learn to have faith cause i believ no one can put me down but myself..

in life

i cherish,
i treasure,
i appreciate..

in return
i fall,
i tumble,
i was hurt..

But
i never surrender - tash

p/s:It's been really long since i penned the last phrase..

20 people you can think of ..

am suppose to do this looooooong time ago but aiyo lazy la...but anyway, from nee nee..here u go..

Name 20 people you can think of (randomly)

1. ping
2. sa
3. wendy
4. elly
5. soo ean
6. clare chan
7. joey tan
8. limei
9. rachel
10. cyen
11. smarty
12. lly
13. chu
14. chloe
15. darlene
16. siewling
17. nee
18. yuki
19. qing qing
20. weileng

How did u meet #14? (chloe)
at uni, wasai this girl kakaka she's a real fun to talk to.. we can really chat from religion to movies, books, frenship to etc etc.. man she's my potter mate!

What would your life be if u haven't meet #1? (ping)
i would not know what is the meaning of happiness and being loved entirely..

What would u do if #20 and #9 dated? (weileng& rachel)
muahahahahaha impossible!!! weileng so soft, rachel is our head of s*h*y department..kenot la, won't work for sure..kakaka

Would #6 and #17 make a good couple? (clare chan & nee)
nola, two girls where can?? plus clare only likes male n nee got too many males to reject so won't la..

Describe #3. (wendy)
this cha bor a..buddy, a sis since primary sch, she suffered short term memory loss cox she nevr remember what happened during primary, every movement of her very lady like, sometimes feel like punching her..then a laughing machine, only know how to laugh, but deffinately a sweet, soft n kind hearted girl..

Do you think #6 is attractive? (clare)
deffinately!!!! clare chan li mei leh..wasai my angel, of cox la! like chocolate, sweet inside out.. :)

Tell me something about #8.(limei)
happily married, one with a soft heart and soft voice..caring, sentimental and she's someone who cherish her friendship..helpful, funny, gila and gal i miss our 'walking days' leh~

Do you know anything about #12’s family? (lly)
normal family lol with dad, mum, bros..she's the youngest..her bro all very keng one leh but to me she is the best!!!!she has what i call inner beauty that shines on the outside..truly cares for her frens!thanks girl~ u know i'l b there for u too.. :)

What is #7's favourite? (joey tan)
pan leng leng..hehehe she love laughing..sometimes i think she's a bit nuts..

What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you? (smarty)
muahahahaha smarty wor!!! sure sure but she so blur la~ i prefer someone who has his own thinking..not an ah blur like her la~~ but if force can also la, she's very cute too kekeke and to all d guys out there...she's d nicest gf u can find cox she dun get emotional easily..a very understanding gf, a gf that doesn't know how to argue as well...so its a sure win case ;)

What language does #15 speak? (darlene)
internet chat room language! kakaka she chat actively online u know so much so that i thought in real life she's a evry serious person..but after knowing her more, man she's a fren u would treasure til the end..

Who's #9 going out with? (rachel)
her bf la!!! ah piew!!!!

How old is #16? (siew ling)
24, older than i am kakakkaa of cox i remember!! she is so gonna kill me~

When was the last time you talked to #13? (chu)
last 2 week i think..yam char ma..we always make sure we all turn out for d 'meeting' cox there is where we share our 'working shits' together kekeke

Who’s #2’s favourite singer? (sa)
a lousy singer name dendevil..hehehe nola actually sa me not very sure leh~paiseh la, but i know if den got album u r for sure his biggest fan!

Would you date #4? (elly)
of cox, a very charming girl..very sweet n pretty girl, can b soft n independent at the same time, love her bf for sure so if we date she sure love me kakakaka moreover, we have the same thinking cox we r both pieces..

Would you date #7? (joey)
of cox!!! funny, witty, deffinately one that will drive me crazy..she makes my life colourful..moreover, i do think she's a sweet gf..sweet in a very funny way kakaka

Is #15 single?(darlene)
y ask me ?? ask darlene la!! i won't tell ppl u r NOT single k!!

What is #10’s last name?(Cyen)
Chan la!! abur??

Would you consider being in a relationship with #19? (qing qing)
why so many ques about will i date who n who punya wasai..my list all girls la~ but with qing qing of cox!! she's d perfect type of "yin leong sun tak""yin chai leong mou"...she's the girl u wanna marry with cox she's soft n yet can b very crazy as well..so wat else do u wan??

What schools did #3 go to? (wendy)
srk convent, seafields a?

Where does #6 live? (clare chan)
taiping la!! but she has a place in my heart too :)

What is your favourite thing about #5? (soo ean)
a fren that understand me very very well...one that i can b frank all d time :)

Wat do you think about #13? (chu)
crazy, funny n deffinately helpful.. :)

What do #4 and #19 have in common? (elly & qing qing)
Oh shit, both of them r so gonna kill me~~ hehehe they both have a very tan coloured skin, sweet, soft spoken and funny too hehehe but they dun know each other..

What special qualities does #17 hold in your life? (nee)
d craziest girl ever that i met..salute man, sometimes i wonder if she's..u know..'normal' kekekeke

What is the most memorable memory you had with #18? (yuki)
wasai..a lot leh...every moment is memorable with her cox like nee, she's a nutty as well...perhaps, nee's bday at qing's place..we went to swim even when it is raining..hehehe

done!

work to be poor..

when i was a student;

1. i spent without worries cox i have my parents n ptptn
2. i watch movies every weekend cox i have my student card with me..the cinema is not always packed and the q on weekdays is forever shorter than weekend..
3. i sing "K" whenever i feel like it, cox lunch K is always the best!!
4. i travel all the way to sunway to have steamboat jus bcox of the to-die-for-chicken wings..okok i admit the leng chai boss's son too hehehe
5. i can plan for holiday with family, bf n frens...i have all the annual leaves that i wan..
6. i can ponteng class whenever i feel too sleepy..
7. i have the latest mobile hp (though not the most expensive n high-tech one)..yet i can afford to change it as i wish
8. i walked into a shop, promoters look up upon me bcox they know students are rich, student can spend..student wil spend jus to have fun..
9. when i buy clothes displayed under discounted area, promoters feel fine cox we r students..discount is meant to help us the "poor but actually rich" students..
   

now that i am working;

1. i spent within my budget (though still exceed abit) but i did keep reminding myself that i have to spend wisely ..
2. now that i am working, i missed out a lot of movies simply bcox i can't afford to go for a RM 10-RM12 per show every weekend compared to Rm 6 student price..moreover, the q is soo long during weekend..
3. when was the last time i sing K since i work?weekend K is soooo expensive...
4. when was the last time i have steamboat at sunway, now that i am staying so far away..
5. the only holiday that i am planning for is the one when i have saved enough money and my holidays is restricted to "annual leave"..but guess it'l b realli far ahead from now..
6. since working, i had officially broke off with "ponteng"...
7. damn, the secondary boy sitting next to me has the latest nokia while me?? aiks..mine dun even have infra-red...
8. i walked into a cake shop @ times square hotel, bloody idiot thought i wanted a discount on a discounted cake simply bcox i flashed my jusco card to collect points! damn u, u think i can't afford to pay??? damn insulting.
9. promoters do not think i am entitled to discount products simply bcox i am an working adult...fuck u! then, dun display them under "S-A-L-E"!!! i hate those glances..

i realli wonder, i am working, i am suppose to b richer but how come i seems to be poorer than ever?

there seems to be so many things that i need to pay for..room rental, transports, foods, clothes, make-ups, facial care,bags, shoes, etc etc.... luckily there's no car loan, house loan, insurance (yet) worse still, every month, i will "phor choi"..guess the more u care about yr money, the faster it will go away...damn!

i miss being a student..a rich one in fact..

p/s: ain't very lucky since i move to cheras..lady luck pls come bk to me~~~
gotta clean my fish bowl this week, gotta rearrange the fengshui in my room...